Friday, June 17, 2011

To recap, to rethink, to rejudge and to resurface unwanted feelings.

Approximately several weeks ago from present, it wasn't a good one and I have no intention to bring it up in detail. Just that,  till today, even I'm thankful with the financial and domestic help, accommodation and the basic needs provided here, I am still lacking of what's more important- time, communication, understanding, love.


Suddenly this time round, all the things that I planned to do when it occurs again, really became very close to happening cause for once, I stood up and wasn't afraid with what the other things I might loose along the way to set things right. And at the moment, I can't even tell what's right actually. Just funny how after many many years, the two supposedly role models we ought to look up or turn too, when things doesn't go right in between, the rest of being affected goes unnoticed. I have been the middle of both parties and I feel like the adult with wisdom nurturing two people which just doesn't want to be at the loosing end. Both trying to grab hold but am I an object of subjecting who won this time? I may just help myself out.

It is true when people say it's easy to say and hard to do. Cause truth be told, I've forgiven, truth be told I'm lying. And I think it's a matter of time with the meditation on God's words that I would eventually come to a point of reconciliation? For now, I'm just glad my sister is back from Tassie.


Skinny love- Birdy

On the other side, I feel as though I'm loosing a friend. I think I lost already anyway, behind cover sheets.

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