There's gotta be more to life

I'm angry with myself, why am I still awake at this hour. I can already hear the birds chirping outside and it's kinda irritating. Sorry. Worst of all, I'm blogging another post after an hour later. Inspiration kicks in when I read other blogs. And this shall be more of life. I'll try.

I always thought I was quite talented and competent in some ways. Unlike just focusing on one target, I actually have many interest, hobbies and past times. I even thought at this age in life, nineteen, I was already accomplishing and doing things many teenagers would not be able. But then, started a year ago, everything died.  Realizing how tough money was hard to earn what more to maintain, my car, labtop, dslr, phone bill, petrol tank, toll, damaged gadgets, software, design materials (SO MANY) all went back to my dad's worries. Call this irrelevant but I always thought growing up should also meant when you're able to stabilize your own financial. Now, here, I haven't even have my first job experienced.

Day after day, I feel more and more rebellious, which I thought it runs among the five siblings I have. It used to be just my brother and I put myself as the second in rank with the piercings and tatt. But then, my sister became a semi wild child over abroad, now leaving my younger brother not much difference to another chaos. Yes, unfortunately, we take our parents for granted.

Hence, I don't wanna disappoint them in my studies. Furthermore,  daddy always said higher education qualification is compulsory in this world today. Despite the financial burden, furthering degree is part of my future and I can't be so selfish to waste my diploma down the drain. College always meant busy. First and second sem that is. Cause the more I look back, the past two ones are not that tough. I actually still had free time to hang out, surf the net and as you can see, updating all my social networks so frequently. And somehow, my other 'important' interest just faded away. That sums up to a very predictable daily life.

My artworks are also dying in some way. I can't think of any ideas currently and my weekends are here.

Gotta buck up!