so emofied...
say wert?
Just when you think that your life starts to get better, it comes crushing straight down south till you can't describe the agony of all the feelings. I don't really know whats wrong with me these days, it's simply undescriable. Everything that is not right just comes one after another as though I was a voodoo doll thats been cursed. My mind is always not in place and it keeps on thinking and thinking like a a person who runs on the tread mill trying not to give up with what they started. Sometimes, I just wonder are those things I'm worrying about are worth worrying about at the end of the day. It might just seem unnessary but yet it feels like it's so important to me - i simply have to be asured. It starts from school down to relationships among friends and family. Sometimes a simple problem like someone who just being so silence keeps me thinking "Why is she/he not talking to me? Did I offended her/ him?" or after I had a conversation, my mind would automatically think 'How did I sounded? I hope it's not too harsh?' And above all these sucky feelings and thoughts, I have no one to turn too. Though I know that turning to God first is the number one solution but anyhoo, physically there's no one to share with. Anyway, all I know that I have to put all these worries aside let God do the rest ; knowing that he had already planned my life from A to Z. & most important of all, I realize I have to learn to put the past behind and start every single day afresh like it is a brand new day with exciting yet could be tough challenges thats ahead of me.
'God will never ask you to do something if he knows you can't handle it...'
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CUT!!! If you read what's above, owhh...how thoughtful reader you are...at the same time...you've wasted a minute? on my emo craps. Oh what the heck?
As for my normal school period now, I'm just going with the flow. Yeah, so I did mentioned that there are 2 German girls who came to my school as an exchange student. This Saturday my school will be having Hari Koko - No, not going. And tomorrow is officially the 08.08.08 Olympics Beijing.
Shirin : Why everyone so excited about the Olympics huh?
Sally : Nice wert ...
Shirin : But why?
ehem...inside joke.
Well, I finished reading my current novel. You what that means?!?! Ahaha, you do! I'm can finally start on my new novel PS. I LOVE YOU!!!! :D
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SORE
Deep down my heart,
It's burning like a fire red,
Holding onto fantasy dreams,
That would eventually fade.
Stubborn at first,
Didn't want to wake up,
Sometimes it felt like a horrible curse,
Trying to eat me up.
Taking my time to turn things around,
Forgetting the past yesterday,
Leaving behind all those shouts,
I feel empty under the pouring rain.
Come and bring me home,
Teach me, lead me,
Hold my hands and leave me no,
One step at a time,
My head's spinning,
Just guide me & show me the sign.
I promise I would stay,
I'll try to do my best,
Leaving the past unsaid,
Don't wanna be a hanging thread.
xoxo,
Shirin
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