Wanderlust Wallflower.

5 o'clock in the morning, conversation got boring

2012-02-11T05:03:00.000+08:00

On a friday night. And nope, I'm not an inch close to a conversation with someone that would keep me up this late. I was, as a matter of fact you guessed it, working on my three tasks on hand. Researching on two graphic designers for my Research & Report Writing class, squeezing my very little leftover energy cells to recall what I've learned throughout my 5 weeks of intern and transfer them into my personalized report and well, my job related projects.

I'm like a single thread. Still connected but just as you put more pressure on it, it starts to thin and eventually snaps. Luckily, I'm still not any close to snapping but yeah, so occupied with my intern. I literally spend 12 hours out of the house daily and my remaining precious 12 just somehow vanishes into thin air.

& it's time like these, I speak out with no intentions of second guessing my life because really, this is just petty stuffs. There are so much more worst case scenarios out there, which I personally think, part of the world which are fortunate enough with so many things in life, shall rant no more too and count the blessings aye!

Goodnight/goodmorning and TTFN.

ps : Tomorrow Ampang Yong Tau Fu (y).

Absence of the presence

2012-01-30T01:46:00.003+08:00

I started driving again, and it just feels awkward with the clutch and shift stick thing. More when your mini well known car has finally dropped it's P red sticker after two years under probation.

I'm hardly into cars already. I still admire them, but that's just it. The hopes of owning one in future for self satisfaction of success capability or for plain free viewing on the highway for others to be envy off, it all has fade away. I always understand that materialistic stuff was not important but car was somehow an exception because the adrenaline in a much admirable vehicle is exhilarating and that, became a pipe idea when a whole new life long lesson story slapped me on the face last year.

I sneaked into the deepest of deepest pit hole I could possibly find to get the whole, mostly accidentally really. Movies are visuals made from mental imagination to make the hearts of viewer feel like the intended emotions it should give, and an applaud or perhaps a standing ovation is acted out afterwards when it is succeeded, feeling the personas' inner core character, so real.

What happens then when it is indeed real?

How frighteningly few are the persons whose death would spoil our appetite and make the world seem empty.

; Eric Hoffer

First 2012 reunion

2012-01-28T00:41:00.003+08:00

How has your CNY week been? I hope it's great. Somehow, the year of dragon seems extravagant!

I had been catching up with many the past few days. Which 'How was tasmania?' questions often being bombarded and I mentally knock myself on the head as I can't really describe. But perhaps, I would write a summary in here one day.

Yesterday, both circles of my friends from college as well as kk peeps had gather together for a ladies night out. Even a few of them who also brought theirs. It is indeed the very first time I'm on an outing with very weird but none the less fun combination of women. One thing I got know about gatherings like these, everyone can pretty much party with anyone when the fact some has only met for the first time. It's a good thing (y).

So here are a few edited images to cover up the bad quality shake images. I'm not sure how to define what's the occasion but let's just say it's a cny celebration plus partying on before internship plus they wanted to throw a welcome back party for me (delusional) :3

& don't worry, we always party safe. So drinkers, be responsible of the consequences of the after alcohol consumption and drivers, be sure to guaranteed sober in order to be cautious on the roads. It's okay to have fun but safety comes first at the end of the day (:

Live as long as you may, the first twenty years are the longest half of your life

; Robert Southey, The Doctor

with Ashley

Ashley, Yvonne & Sally

Brain shots or something?

drivers excluded

rachel, ashley & felicia

sweet lemon-ie sodas

felicia, sally & yvonne-after-shots

hazel, rachel-after-shots & ashley

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Chinese New Year ahhhhhhhh

2012-01-25T01:54:00.001+08:00

Malaysia, I'm back.

Snap a pic cause I know you don't know what a SLURPEE is.

Tasmazia

2012-01-17T16:21:00.000+08:00

As promised, the trip to the maze called Tasmazia located at Mole Creek, Tasmania.

It was about an hour and a half from where we stay, Launcheston. There was a total of 8 who went and we managed to finish all 8 mazes in 2 hours. But not much of the maze itself, it was the miniature buildings that intrigued me. So cute and colourful! Unfortunately not much pictures. Not to forget lovely weather too, not too hot not to cold. Oh yeah, entrance fee is $20 per person.

The Lavender Farm just beside

Under Construction

The Three Bear's Cottage

INSIDE
We had to squat down

The cafes

Nachos and Scones

Savoury pancake

Scones with Tasmanian famous rasphberry jam

Sweet pancake

Though very bloated with lunch, we still had to save some room for dinner at Black Cow Bistro (farewell dinner) where it's also a fine dining steak house. You know, fine dining as in booking in advance, wearing proper and not knowing what to order just cause the menu itself is like another maze challenge. And when you order, it takes an hour to arrive because they have to cook it up to perfection.

Anyhow, others started with entrees but me and my sis decided to jump straight to the main course which are of course, steaks costing $35 poured with special gravies ($3.50) alongside with a side dish of mushrooms ($7). And for the drinks, I've ordered Baileys Irish Cream ($11.5 for 30 ml). I didn't really wanted to drink wine as the others which was a Bays of Fire Pinot costing $66 per bottle. & lastly, we ended with pudding topped with passion fruit ice cream ($18).

*See how I remember the prices so precisely. That's how many times I looked front and back of the menu before ordering.

Steak in Black cow Bistro

& the day before, we headed to the Country Club slash Casino. It's almost an everyday night hangout spot because I guess it's one of the few places that closes late. Late I mean 2.00am. If you're not seeking for alcohol, caffeine, fried chips or sweet pastries, I reckon to head back home and snooze off.

Cola mix rum and Champagne at the Casino

and I need to admit,
I can't drink for nuts. Many attempts throughout the years proves it.

Alrighty.
TTFN.

Every teardrop like a waterfall

2012-01-16T16:12:00.000+08:00

I'm supposed to be getting ready already but I thought I'll drop by here. Today's just odd. I'm extremely relieved to get my study results as well as my tough stern boss's kind email reply. I've also got an encouraging comment from my leader.

Today's odd. Did I already just say that? I've teared too today again. That's one thing about me. I can be a very strong steady women, deep inside I can be like a emotional psychopath, feeling so connected with this and that. Good events, bad troubles, every teardrop can be like a waterfall. Today's odd. I said that three times now. I reminded myself of the death by the sayings of others, it still feels like it's the same yesterday today. From the beginning, I've got no rights to know, to feel like the closer ones, but I told you I can be emotional incline with everything.

Time's still moving. We should too. I should too.

I went to Tasmazia today. It's a MAZE. Update on that later xx

I am very much settled down with everyone & everything

2012-01-14T18:21:00.000+08:00

I went to the neighbor's garage sales today. So as my sister's friends who lives here and there but in the same neighborhood, just at different streets. No wonder my sister has so much house parties. And it gives me goosebumps to think if this life was within my friends. We will never get out work done. *yao ming*

Well, I'm home alone at the moment because the rest of the housemates including my sister is out working. That being said, my meals everyday consist of either bread, cereal or fruits because no one is able to bring me out (lazy to walk). And perhaps it's too expensive (thank goodness we have mamak back home) I am INDEED lacking of a proper meal and that's why I'm putting on weight, consuming too much unnecessary junk food in between. Fortunately, next Monday I'll be dining at this fancy steak house with my sister of course together with her 12 mates. Human beings, food, party- finally!

I like the fact that during summer, the sun rises as early as 5am and sets only at 9.30pm. This delusionalize the extension of a longer day which is a big favorite for a person like me because that, I can do so much things. Oh yeah, following the time here, waking up at 8am is such a regret already.

And surprisingly, I've been productive this week. I baked everyday, do the laundry, washed the toilet, washed the car, clean up the dishes, helped my sister reconfigure her room, practice on a portrait, grocery shopping, etc. Who knew I would be doing house chores over here and yet feeling light and easy. To be frank, I have no idea what I am about to do when I'm back in Malaysia. I mean for this entire year really. No resolutions whatsoever. All I can think about is getting back to my intern for another 5 weeks, finish my finals and full stop. I'm even afraid to think of my degree. BUT, I promised myself of doing something out of the ordinary for this year, just gotta figure it out.

Meantime, I do have one change to be made. That is to learn to admire life especially in hectic periods. I really like being one of the earliest to wake up here. When I have the whole kitchen to myself, having a set of homemade breakfast, with the cold morning wind gushes through the antique old window. Alone, quiet, calm. It's always a good morning (:

ps : Take care of your health peeps. Sis's friend just got infected with Hepatitis A.

pss : Pictures of my sister's place.

The fireplace (right) is her secret chamber of all her hidden shoes ==

Dining area / my constant hangout spot

Hallway (front is the main door)

Toilet. Do I need say more?

The back lawn

Clothes hanger

I am so fascinated with how many things in the house are designed for winter. Fireplace, heaters, electric blankets and so much more. Oh boy, I can never survive during winter!

Okay, just plain vanity.

2012-01-12T19:57:00.000+08:00

Oh hole

2012-01-11T21:21:00.002+08:00

I've turned my sister's monitor to the back and hence, I'm blogging from the bed! Also, I'm typing these while my fingers or the whole body as a matter of fact, battling the urge to pee as the weather is slowly decreasing now to a 10'C. Already hitting 12am soon, it's going to be Thursday. My sister is out having a drink while I'm here at home with her other 3 guy friends, once again.

I'm really lacking of images in this blog of mine man. I will try to think of a way to post the pictures I've taken throughout my trip here. Just cause I really want to share them. The natural landscapes are too breath taking it's a waste not to show.

And yeah, I've decided to stop gauging my ear. Remember I mentioned that I used the sticks method instead of getting a caper? Well, just for your curiosity, I stopped at only 15 sticks. Now, as you can see, it's not big but big enough to peep closely across the other side. Say about 0.3mm? Now, shall wait to shrink back cause as far as I know, it would if its not expanded too much.

Till then, goodynight .
Loves and TTFN.

2011 rehab, i mean recap

2012-01-09T12:44:00.001+08:00

Alright, after replying Yvonne's loooong message and checking updates on the social network, I've decided to pick this time to blog something. My 2011 moments perhaps? Let's see.

Worked for the first time as an Intern.
To be frank, I don't really enjoy it but I'm really believing it's going to turn out for the better when I get back home for another 5 weeks of completion. Though considering it's draining a lot of cash out of me, I really learned a lot from this experience. Learned to value money, family and friends, time and self survival capabilities.

Death of living souls
Funny how at this age, I've encountered quite a number of them and till today, my thoughts would somehow drift to that side when I'm just laying on my bed or something. True what mom said, when one dies in their young age, you feel the pinch more worse. That's why, one of my maxim to hang on in 2012 is to move on.

Wanderlusting with the two men
Izzral and Kyle. I'll be frank here. I don't really know how it came about but the next thing we know, we were travelling around KL and Selangor with our hobby that time, photography. Ask us now, we don't even where's our dslrs. *yaoming* I clearly remember, that six weeks was one of the highlights of 2011.

My second tattoo
My first was done in Dec 2009 the 8th. This, my second was inked together with Ashley at BlackCat Tattoo, Sunway Pyramid, on the 6th September, for only RM200. It's a verticle cursive quote 'heartsoulstrenghtmind' (joined) on my left ribs.

Shifted to my brother's room
Which is larger but not necessarily better. However, I'm liking it so far. My house of 6 bedrooms are getting emptier as my siblings are slowly leaving. What can I say. Everyone's growing up. MOVE ON.

From a P driver to C? driver
Who would thought 2 years would past so fast. That being said, my viva's going to be 2 years as well this coming April.

Lost weight below the usual
This happened when I had to stinged a little when I was working due to lack of money. Not healthy I know.

Gain back the above the usual weight
I call it the 'Australia' kg's. Just cause I would never ever gain this much as long as I'm in Malaysia. Just, when I'm here.

Wake up, Make Up
Sorta? trying them. Yes, I'm 12334234 too late for a girl.

Joined MIRRORs
It's a modelling agency competition. You would have guess it's not my cup of tea cause I was dragged by Ashley. But it was a good try out. At least I got a free hairstyling and make up that day.

LOVE KL Global Conference
Hosted by C3 Church. And fortunately, this year was held at the Sunway Pyramid's Convention Centre.

and well

I lived life.

Many times when I do a recap of my past years, I would mention on how it's the most challenging yet. Now dejavu, I'm declaring it once again. But really, this time, it's for real. I found myself learning so so much the past year especially socially. I was expose to new things, real issues. I guess that was the awakening call of realizing how I am actually growing up to adulthood.

How'dy ?

2012-01-03T15:55:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2012.

Just a quick update on life here in Australia, because I can't really settle down just yet by this week and well, the internet quota is running low. And sorry there aren't pictures yet. There is so much things I want to blog about but couldn't find the right time. I still want to jot a recap of my 2011. Prolly next week.

Firstly, Melbourne was a tad tiring as both me and my brother were dependent on a day to day basis kinda thing in terms of accommodation, food, and transportation. For the whole week, we were practically surviving on Mcd's 5 bucks meal and 7E's 1 buck coffee daily. We've also spend NYE in the central business district itself, anticipated the 9.30pm and 12.00am fireworks at three different locations. I'm not too sure about the crowd in Malaysia but over here, it's madness with everyone squeezing between each other, having to climb over fences to escape from the block roads, police officers rounding around to make sure there aren't fights and drunken people on the roads. We stayed in the airport that very night and the crowd still didn't die after 3 plus in the morning.

Now, reaching to Tasmania, it's a relief to see my sister! Which has the car, accommodation, food, plans, money, EVERYTHING (sneaky smile). Also, this would be the time I myself would complain about other people staying overseas but yeah, I miss home. The familiar territory which we are not intimidated by rather proud of owning it. The super duper spicy ~~Indomee~~ food and the weather. Summer this year is actually very hot, I'm totally burned and tanned, it's not a joke.

All in all, if there's one thing I really like it about here, it's the peaceful pace of life and how the sun only sets at 9.15pm. Having picnics at random places as long there are grass, drinking a hot cup of joe while folding up your legs by the port, shopping for clothes that makes you wanna sleep in them everyday... can't really get them in Malaysia.

So yeah, not really a short update after all heh? Updates on social networks are for pure interest of sharing and to update people back home, if you guys still wanna know. (I'm watching you signal). No intentions of bragging cause sometimes, just sometimes, while it is assume I'm having the time of my life here (which I am too) I do wish I could be back home to be with the ones I love.

ACTIVITIES DONE :

- Visited Melbourne AQUArium (sharkkkks and penguins).

- Saw penguins coming up to shore to our feets.

- Jumped from a cliff of 6m to the gorge (adrenaline russsssh).

- Saw different type of seahorses. Surprisingly learnt a lot about them too.

- Walked around the city.

- Visited many beaches.

- Did fresh oyster picking from the sea. Yea, they're FREEEEE.

- Visited the Luna Theme Park.

- Sat in a Celica.

- HOUSECHORES.

annnnd I can't think already. Alrighty!

TTFN and loves.

Overdozed

2011-12-26T05:24:00.001+08:00

Just got back from a peep's house and now feeling a tad of satisfaction at the same time alone, but mostly a mind clouded with winding clueless thoughts due to this thing we relate to liquid. Just so funny how I ended up here with these bunch of people before I leave for Australia tomorrow. Sitting at the hidden balcony of the house imbibing some drinks, chatting, but mainly not really much about that rather just sitting, facing the street lights and let your mind go blank. Feeling free. I'm not hyped about the trip to be frank but it's true I got to make the best out of it. Meanwhile, I'm going to miss the people back here.

I'll update soon.

TTFN and loves.

There may be pain in the night but joy comes in the morning

2011-12-23T04:19:00.001+08:00

2011 is in fact one fickle year giving me way too much collywobbles. Just as the year end is getting closer, Christmas is reaching nearer, more tragic things are happening. Tuesday marked the day a high school friend of mine passed on due to a road accident. Life is never too young. You can never ask what are the chances of me being that person. God put you in the world, He can also take you away just like that. And though sometimes, we don't really understand why things happen as such, we just need to continue believing, that things happen for a reason. God doesn't and didn't ever intended to give you pain but joy.

Drive safe and loves.
TTFN.

2011-12-16T00:48:00.001+08:00

slowly and surely getting on to the girly side of me

What can I say. It all turned out for the good at the end. This week had been good in the office and surprisingly it's already friday, coming to the starting of the weekend. Then another week left to check everything on my to-do list before leaving. And to be frank, I'm not that anticipated for my departure. I guess, my mind would be there but deep inside, my heart is left behind back here.

I feel after I have started work, I am oblige to push away many entertainment and hence I am lacking of excitement in my agenda lately. The people, the activities, the moments, are abandoned. Yet, if you ask me what's there to be done to satisfy my hunger, I don't know what it really is.

But hey, I am still one very happy girl right now. By the way, I'm gauging my earlobe, only the right. And it hurts badly eventhough if my pain threshold is high. I would update on it if I can even last.

TTFN AND LOVES.

yes

2011-12-13T01:25:00.001+08:00

as much as i'm overly thinking, i'm going to stop doubting and have faith. god is good, all the time. and his love endures forever.ttfn,yours truly.

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Dying 8 hours daily

2011-12-10T00:27:00.001+08:00

If you guys haven't had known, I've started my internship already. Earlier compared to my other course mates which makes me feel really old all of a sudden. It's Friday today and I couldn't be more happier than ever that my first week had finished and I have another two more weeks before celebrating the awesome Christmas mood I already am and also leaving for Aussie.

How's the real world? Since last time, before I even work elsewhere, I always knew working is not one of those good feeling that feeds into your soul and thus, you would know by now I am going to rant about work. I'm not enjoying it to be frank. First and foremost, it's costing me so so much! Why so? I get stuck in traffic jams almost 2 1/2 hours on the road back and forth, I spend about RM13 on parking (I have to manage my time properly to meet the 1st three hours RM1 rule), RM3 on toll, the petrol, etc.- DAILY. I skip lunches cause even mamak meals are expensive.

Being an intern is always said to be a education process of learning. But because this company of mine hardly takes in interns and by what I see, only experienced ones, I am indeed, feeling the heavy pressure that I might jeopardize thousand dollars projects. Fyi, my current projects are websites designing & it's so dreadful. (I'm currently evaluating this blogger functions as I'm typing).

To sum from this one week of work, all I can say is, I truly miss the lovelies and even my family. This thing in the real world make me realize how hard it is to earn a living and it's like, the one thing that people are constantly chasing after is only related to their career. Never ever take loved ones for granted. It's better to chase after them than chasing after materialistic stuff. Cause I for one, can say, it's people around me that I'm looking forward to everyday to survive the 8 hours job.

I miss you guys.
I miss you !

TTFN.

Somewhere Only We Know

2011-11-26T00:48:00.001+08:00

The very one day I decided to head to bed early, I can't fall asleep. Tossing from left to right on my sofa bed I've been bumming on a few months now rather than my double decker bed, which is where I'm blogging at at the moment in the dark feels a tad forever alone. Just as it's a Friday night and everyone chose to party outside, I am here staying indoors though have too, deep inside I rather be here too.

Funny how almost 90% of people would reminisce about their day, their life before actually falling asleep where the other 10% are too worn out no life people that knocks off straight after covering beneath sheets. Though, this seems to increase within society as years goes by I reckon. But back to the main, yeah, on this quiet rather awakening night, I've been thinking.

Thinking, what happened to before.
When it was us, her, him, me and you.

TTFN.

Tiring but intriguing

2011-11-21T02:13:00.001+08:00

Everything has been unpredictable lately, just like my up and down bodyweight.

It has been so busy, too busy, leaving me with an enstrange feeling. What happened to time, where did the 24 hours went too? It doesn't seem sufficient enough for my overwhelming obligations. Well, one thing for sure I get out from here, I am a workacholic who needs replying urgent mails daily at the age of 19 and shall not be proud. Just that, I can't seem to give out a piece of work that's way below par of what my expection is to be, presentations had to be prepare beforehand so that I don't run out of words while standing in front of many staring eyes, and I can't go to a foreign land not knowing what and where to go or do. Oh yupe, been pretty caught up with the planning of my Australia trip next month. (again, timeeeee past so fast) I had lost a tad of interest after all the struggles I had went through to make this work, but hey, when I'm living the moment, something would tell me it's all worthwhile and yes, it's going to be a satisfying reward after this chaotic semester,

havoc year of twenty eleven.

TTFN.

Through space and time

2011-11-09T03:51:00.001+08:00

She never was a lover of flowers. Neither lover of weddings and happy endings. Yet, became part of her life that gave sweet wasting smiles. She discovered many places in that particular humdrum daylight, it proved her definition of wanderlust.

'Eventually time always runs out. I don't know where all of these went too, but I understand I lost the right to know these things long ago.'

Maybe,

it's feeling like time's run out,

But the hour glass just flipped itself over again,

The sun is slowly sinking down,

But on the other side a new day awaits to begin.

If you dare to believe.

xoxo

2011-11-07T13:07:00.002+08:00

My connect group leader once told me that through trials and tribulations, the end doesn't really matter. As it is to the journey that's more important. It's during this period, the way you react, the way you handle the situation, the way you hold yourself together properly, it is expose the eyes of your surrounding and it can make a difference. While here I am, may be going through one of the toughest predicament just cause it does not only affect my personal space but also the time and money of others, I am yet keeping my faith in this small little race in time.

Meanwhile, I'm glad to see several others that's succeeding in a particular thing put their focus on. Cause I believe, at one point, they have also kept the good fight, and they won the battle.

Time to catch up on my work, eat greens and drink a hot cup of joe.

TTFN.

In Time

2011-11-01T02:47:00.000+08:00

I knew I was going to blog about this when I was half-way through the movie. Just cause it was too cool and mind blowing the minute I saw the green digits decreasing and increasing rapidly on their hand watch.

It's basically about how the world they live in is no longer run by the power of dollar bills rather over conquered by a good gone bad electronic replacement- time, which starts counting down at the age of 25 where one would never age but in return, have to struggle avoiding the finishing of limited life span. Hence, it explains how the rich can live longer, because they have what it takes to earn it. That being said, here in the movie, it also shows Will Sallas (Justin Timberlake), a guy surviving literally day by day in the ghetto, ending up giving time to the rest, alongside with partner in crime, Sylvia Weis (Amanda Seyfried)- daughter of the main time dealer.

It's shows like this that's worth the watch. Speaking of time, I really do need some for the month of December to January. My schedule is too tight to fit everything that is compulsory to be done.

God, seriously, I pray that You'll make a way. Amen.

Sunday Morning Call

2011-10-23T02:18:00.001+08:00

To try fixing my imperfections and hey, skinny semi retarded wannabee picture oh.

TTFN.

It's a little bit funny, this feeling inside

2011-10-22T04:02:00.001+08:00

My gift is my song, and this one's for you
And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple, but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind that I put down in words

<3

Zombie

2011-10-18T01:12:00.001+08:00

13 hours of sleep the past 96 hrs. Hoorah.

I tried squeezing the memories into a paper but it would never be enough.

Alright. Here we go.

The past week had been no surprise that it was extremely hectic, constantly on the go from morning till night. By far, this is the worse amount of workload I must say. So bad I could just go to the showers and break into tears. Personally, I think it's also due to my time of the month that's about to arrive. Just by watching a mediocre romantic comedy, I could cry almost at every scene. Speaking of that, you guys have to watch Crazy Little Thing Call Love aka First Love, a Thailand spoken movie. It's quite unlike of me to watch these kind when it involves younger relationships but this is just too cute to pass (:

Mario Maurer as Shone

Pimchanok Luevisadpaibul as Nam
Before and After (movie)

Last but not least, this girl I like.

Kachamat Pormsaka Na-Sakonnakorn as Pin.

TTFN.

Good morning there

2011-10-05T11:04:00.000+08:00

First of all, it's Ashley's birthday! & her birthday's always a havoc one which forces people to sleep with their eyes wide open thinking of what to wear, where to go, what will we do, etc.

DIVA. Haha. Kidding.

Alright, shall flood with pictures collected from all over with my Samsung Galaxy SII.

The room I shifted in recently.

Morning jams with the morning golden sunrise.

Evening jams with the gloomy cloudy pouring rain.

INKS.

Ashley and I at Black Cat Tattoo, Pyramid.

Beautiful fallen yellow flowers at my house garden (':

Dad's 53th brithday at TGIF's.

Buffalo wings, cheesy sticks, celery & potatoes.

The birthday cake & TGIF's awesome mousses.

Whole family excluding sister, still in Tasmania.

One day job at Entrepreneur Park, Bukit Jalil.

Handling tattoo stick on's & face painting booth. This boy, TOO CUTE.

Shadow.

Partial collection of novels & comics.

Longing to start reading again, badly.

Daphne & I

The day we all wore blue coincidentally.

Starbucks cheapest black coffee. LOL.

Buuuuuuut, it's still awesome. It's Starbucks.

Random make up day done by Yvonne Tan

The one with heavy eyes bags yet said to be dreamy. Pfft. Haha.

Printing technology class.

For the first time after so long, we're back to doing manual work.

Sunway's carpark in the mid of expanding underground.

The trees :(

French braiding, only this time attempting to do from right to left.

PHAIL.

Slumber party with overdose of chocolate sweetness.

Key chains by the two men from Korea & Terengganu. Very cute indeed.

Panda cookies from the lady.

Late raya open house at mum's friend's house slash lecturer's mum.

Scary mary.

Beatles convention at Summit.

Yvonne & I riding on Sunway's shuttle bus after so long.

Note : Pics involving myself is always blurry. Gasp.

MONEY IS HARD TO EARN

2011-10-01T01:35:00.002+08:00

HOORAH, got my first pay check. Very well said, my first so called job. Ohmygoodness, I'm so lame.

Ran some errands today which include making a new bankbook cause I've lost my previous, went to Northpoint Mid Valley to send in my spoilt dslr lcd to the Sony Centre, then to Pyramid to get my mobile's screen protector change. & a few other places such as Subang Parade and my old condo, Sunway Court.

Bottom line is, back to what I've said at the beginning.

Alone and quiet and idea-zero

2011-09-28T02:59:00.001+08:00

This would be my first picture with glasses posted up. Hair's doing good, at night, as always. When it's time for classes, that's when it decides to troll me. But, it's growing long already.

Really felt unproductive earlier this afternoon just cause my supposedly 2 hours nap? turned into 7 hours. Period cramp was so bad this time round, I was sitting by the toilet bowl half catatonic half ready to throw up and I was very close to passing out, literally. Have no idea what happened this month.

I'm heading to Melbourne & Tasmania for a month end of this year. So, I guess that's one thing to look forward to this year. Annnnd, Christmas! How can I ever miss that. I would be travelling with my elder brother and because I've went before last year, I need to plan out everything from places to accommodation to entertainment to transportation to FOOD. Oh yeah, I am literally taking up my BURGER CHALLENGE.

Alright, heading for an early class once again. Brain jamed and I can't think of any ideas no more. Hence, this is goodnight.

Left ; Dreamcatcher Right ; My personal tattoo.
Later in the afternoon assignment, relating to diecuts and embossing.

This place needs some,

2011-09-26T03:18:00.002+08:00

“Nostalgia is a file that removes the rough edges from the good old days.”

- Doug Larson

Two possessed dreams

2011-09-20T01:07:00.002+08:00

To dream that you are possessed represents your state of helplessness. You feel you are not in control of things.

I don't believe in these urban meanings but hey, that was just how I felt like lately.

Things had changed and I don't really enjoy it? Who really ever loves changes to begin with, especially when it's for the worse. But I do realize one thing, whether to go forth with a satisfaction of knowing things happen for a reason or rather than sulking and ranting about it all the way. Many times, I find myself leaving in the past where it was happy rainbows and cotton candies. It may seem impossible but I really felt like it not too long ago. Everything just seemed too perfect to a certain extent of amazement and unbelievable wow. Now, when there's a slight change in the plan of furthering into the future, I think, or at least hope to think so, that I'm moving forward with what I'm in control. No more useless nostalgic of how good the good old days were and how I constantly catch myself repeating ' I think we should do that again. Oh, remember what happened? It was so funny. Ahh, memories.' Cause it'll usually ends up with NATO.

Sometimes, what the maxim is mentioned turns out to be true. Some people who comes into your life or rather some interesting events that took place which turned awry doesn't mean it's a bad thing. I won't say it's a waste either because it's these factors that you'll look back and thought, hey, I did have the time of my life and I made it this far.

It's just sometimes,

things change in the process.
Often hoping, it's for the best.

Lexus LFA

2011-09-13T03:24:00.001+08:00

I was so exhausted, still am, after hours of assignmenting, I decided to search for cars I haven't discovered. This, is then another car that shoots straight up to my list, apart from a celica and a nissan gtr.

It was 2.50am. Now, it's 3.16am?

Slowly and surely going back to vampire's routine just cause I find myself rushing for assignments already. Anyhow, yes, this is my new gadget. I thought I would show you guys if you're happen to be one of those that's a lil too lazy to google it out. So far, it's doing me well with its ton of useful functions and apps. However, it drains the battery out fast.

After getting this actually, I came to realized I'm sort of loaded with technologies wherever I go. Mobile, dslr, gps and a laptop are basically the essential things I'll bring along especially on photography road trips. (make ups, beauty care, hygienic stuffs on the other hand often left behind, shucks)

~~People may rob me, yikes!~~

Speaking of my dslr, the lcd current condition is grossing me out.

It's not hand, water neither oil print.

It's juuuust, there.

& I've fully transfered to the next room. So, hoorah.

Last but not least, BLACKCAT TATTOO. Finally, I've done. Furthur details on another post cause I have to wake up in 2 1/2 hrs time for moral studies.

Drafts and more drafts

2011-09-10T23:49:00.001+08:00

No proper time or rather no proper inspiration starting point to blog a real post though the thoughts are lingering in my mind. And well, no proper pictures to update along with my long body copy as well.

Shall find the time soon. xoxo.

Take A Bite of My Heart Tonight

2011-09-06T01:49:00.001+08:00

Thought of an update. Such a short time yet so much has happened. What can I say, life?

Just finished the one week raya holiday by spending my time in PD for youth camp, then a very last minute plan to Malacca with the family. Got my last sem results sent to the house and needing to pay this sem fees by tomorrow. I got a new gadget. Yes, finally an advanced mobile, Samsung Galaxy S2 brand. I'm in the mid of exchanging room with my older brother. That being said, there are so much things to move here and there, I can't find my clothes that's laying around everywhere. Oh yeah, heading to the gym tomorrow. Shocking. I've also checked out the price of the tattoo I'm planning to get. 500 bucks is just not worth the size I want. So the searching continues. & did I mention I would be going to Tassie in December with my older brother to visit my sister. Hoorah.

Here's a song by Samuel from The Glee Project singing Animals by Neon tree. Enjoy!

I may just see the world a whole new way several days later

2011-08-28T03:11:00.002+08:00

Gonna be waking up in 4 hours time to get ready for church and youth camp straight after that. Just as you think this odd blogging period may seem usual to me, it is actually rather not recently as I'm already heading to bed early in order to have the sufficient needed energy, waking up for 8 am classes.

Back to youth camp, yeaps, I would be away to PD for three days. The venue may sound boring but the people and most importantly, the work of the holy spirit throughout the camp would be great I reckon. It's always opportunity like this where we head home after absorbing everything, to our individual lives, feeling empowered all over again. Sometimes, I think, isn't it a tad sad when we need a special occasion to feel the strong touch of God. It's not wrong but wouldn't God be more please when His children stays connected with him everyday, every time rather than a roller coaster relationship. That being said, whoever you may be, where ever you are, whatever you're going through, if you're one of those that feels so strong spiritually after any God-event related and the enthusiasm slowly fades away, then it repeats into a cycle, know that it's not to late and it's not entirely wrong. It's not that it's encourage cause you got to stay united with the Almighty men daily. But after all, it is normal to fall back into the old ways sometimes and loose the importance of who we truly are. So, if there's an importunity like this, don't miss it and be touch by God, feel his love once again (:

Pictures from LOVE KL 2011, a C3 global conference held in Pyramid Convention Centre.

Awesome backdrop done by 1st year students from Creative Arts c3 College.

Ps. Andrew Kuballa.
Amazing healing evangelist that made a limping man walk again that night.

Great praise and worship team.

This is the lead guitarist that looked like Adam Levine.
Gasp.

Have a great Sunday and week ahead peeps. xoxo.

LLB

2011-08-26T01:20:00.002+08:00

When I was visiting Australia last year, I drank this drink called LLB which stands for Lemon Lime & Bitters almost everyday. And now I suddenly recalled because I came across a ready made one in Jusco hypermarket today, a Bickford's brand and it doesn't contain alcohol. On the other hand, if you would want to make it at home, it's easy! Just mix lemon, lime and a few drops of the secret ingredient, Angostura Bitters, a highly concentrated food & beverage flavoring. This, contains 44.7% alcohol for a 200ml bottle by the way. Haven't seen this anywhere here so far though. But if you still wanna have a try, you can either get it from hypermarkets or the only dining place that serves this, Miss. Read. It's super gassy & addictive!

Very simply and to be frank, not really practical kind of packaging.

And now, this is the the amazing clouds in Klang. Goodnight peeps.

Here we go again

2011-08-22T23:14:00.003+08:00

MirroRs

2011-08-06T02:55:00.006+08:00

So on Thursday, I actually woke up early just for the sake of attending the Mirrors event accompanied by Ashley, her sister Alana and a new bubbly friend Ira. I wasn't interest in it frankly speaking cause yeah, you would know I'm not into all these things but then, just for the fun of getting a free makeover, why not heh.

Make up & hairstyle done by The Celebre Academy.

Hair was curled and half pin up. Make up was rather vague.

I noticed that my hair is not that short after all.

I'm planning to grow it out longer and then cut the bottom straight (:

1st pic : with Ashley.
2nd pic : with Alana.
Regreted not having one with Ira.

Oh, since we haven't been roaming around Sunway area for quite some time since we finished classes, we decided to satisfy our hunger with Indomee. The new super spicy is really good. Lately, I've been having much better and healthier meals. It started with my stubborn bowels actually. Hence, I've been imbibing more fruits and vegetables. I even bought a box of the new Brands Prune Essence for detoxification which helped.

And I stumbled across Jamie Oliver's simple pancakes. Not to forget, healthy too. Try it out (:

it's a little burned. opps!

115g/4 oz plain flour

1 heaped teaspoon baking powder

140ml/4oz milk

a pinch of salt
3 eggs (separated into yoke & whites)

Mix flour + baking powder + milk + egg yokes.
Whisk salt + egg whites.
Combine both into a single batter and spoon them on a frying pan. Flip on both side till it's cook.

I personally would use only 2 eggs cause 3 tasted a little too eggy. And eat them with desired jams. You can add flavoring into the batter itself. Do take note that the pancakes are not sweet because it doesn't have sugar content. Thus, it can added into batter too if preferred. But, that is not healthy now isn't it? (;

ENJOY.

The Vow

2011-08-04T00:18:00.000+08:00

Starring Channing Tatum and Rachel McAdams.

The Road Not Taken

2011-08-03T21:48:00.002+08:00

I ain't sure what's happening to everyone lately because all I see on facebook are rants and complains about their personal haywired lives, which I'm sorry to say but it's a nuisance to be frank. If it's related to something important I do understand because after all everyone has those days, but really, from updates I see, most are eenie tiny meeny. And, they're basically stuffs in general which both you and I would face.

Taking everything personally and just taking every slightest thing so seriously is causing disastrous effect on one's emotion and sad to say, it's uncalled for cause at the end, there's always a choice and most decides to take the self pity lane.

In this era, everyone are as though competing in this challenge of who's leading the most miserable lives. What happened?

Eyes are needed to be widen, ears are needed to be open, hearts are needed to be soften.

Qing Fei De Yi - F4

Red handed. I was once a Meteor Garden fan (:

ps : Attending Mirrors @ Sunway University College tomorrow. Shucks.

hOWHrror

2011-07-31T23:08:00.002+08:00

People often ask, why would you want to pay for a scary movie to scare yourself? I can't really answer too but you would know by know I simply like the twisting suspense gruesome plots. That being said, the best one yet is still SAW. And seriously, I used to stay away from the horror genre and just focus on thriller. However, along the way, I found myself watching them as well. And these few days, I've been spending my time watching movie. Coincidentally, horrors.

The Exorcist, 1973 version.
My mum didn't encouraged me to watch this when I was younger. Apparently, it is based on a novel written by William Peter Blatty, based on a true story. If you were too google, it's very complicated actually. Possession never was easy to explain true?

RATE : 6/10

Ju On.
The very first one and I ask myself why I was even afraid to watch all this while. I'm sorry but I didn't enjoy this at all. On the better note, the terrified looking make ups did scare me. Watched this at 4am plus.

RATE : 4/10

Karak.
Indeed one of the best Malaysia production. I think that's cause this is the only one I've watched. Haha. But really, the twisted story line at the end made it a thumbs up movie.

RATE : 8/10

Last but not least,
Chloe and Carrie
I slept at 6am today watching both of these, alone, because my sleeping routine is really out.

Chloe is actually not a horror but a erotic thriller sexual issue related. Once again, the sudden turn around at the end was the one that intrigued me. Plus, it's nice seeing Amanda Seyfriend acting somewhere out of her usual personas.

Carrie is a very old movie, 1976. AND you can not judge by it's production year (realization). Because of poor quality technology those days, I would assume to be fake and boring but the main actress in here really freaked me out. Interesting plot as well. You'll like this if you love those ending where the bad one dies.

RATE : 9/10

RATE : 8/10

I THINK I WILL WANT TO WATCH A FEW ROMANTIC COMEDIES NOW.
TTFN.

Letting go

2011-07-27T23:39:00.003+08:00

Supposedly it's the time of life where I should sleep like forever which I did but I can't seem to do so peacefully. Been waking up in between before deciding to really get up and start my day, at 10am. That's early.

'Nuff said. Goodnight peepos.

TTFN.

//edited
Currently 6.40am and I'm awake.

Needles and fabrics

2011-07-27T03:59:00.004+08:00

DAY 2. (im actually gonna try updating daily to keep track of my productivity).

Out of nowhere, I decided to sew a blouse. Which was a failure cause I couldn't fit in it even though at first it looks kinda big. Well, I'm gonna try succeeding in making a bat wing blouse with the other cloths I bought along.

Check out GiannyL DIY tutorials .

Apart from that, I've been consuming a lot of green tea, coffee and fruits to detoxify my stubborn bowels which causes my tummy to bloat. And also just cause I can't stand to feel unhealthy with many days of wastage accumulating in my body. Eww.

Just finished watching The Roomate. TTFN.

Take Me Away

2011-07-26T00:38:00.000+08:00

A one month semester break awaits and I'm up for anything, if. you. plan.

Weird out by my indecisive mind, I rather prefer to stay in at the moment to just lay around and do nothing. Watching tv is considered nothing. Nothing actually sums up to literally doing nothing and even if you're doing something, it doesn't involve the working of your mind. Sleeping, stoning, eating, surfing the net, drawing are considered as nothing activities.

Somehow, just the though to get change and head out the door for a reason seems like a drag. But that doesn't mean I'll be unproductive cause I do have some 'me' activities I want to accomplish during this short period. Seriously, so much to achieve yet can't really numbered it down properly.

Amanda Seyfried

I reckon it looks more similar in actual. This is an unfinished one anyway. And RED NAILS.

Watching Exorcist 2. TTFN.

Genting again

2011-07-24T02:10:00.001+08:00

I always said this. No matter how many times you head up to Genting, with which ever bunch of people, there's always a story of each own to tell. Somehow. I've just went up there again for the third time in the past few months. Funny how that place fascinates me and I'm not bored of it yet.

Activity of the night, planking.

This was taken at Honeymoon in Kuchai Lama where we had a girls day out before Yvonne leaves for Sabah during this one month break. Yeap, semester four is officially over. Speaking of Yvonne's absence, yeah, will try to update here often in order to keep her #foreveralone life there updated as well. Haha. I'll try.

TTFN.

HK

2011-07-17T16:37:00.002+08:00

I've spent my Sundays watching Hell's Kitchen marathon for a couple of weeks now and ridiculous how I thought this reality cooking show was plain dumb before. Turns out, it is so entertaining. Funny thing, it is not the food that is the pull factor cause really, their dinner kitchen is basically serving the same food every night but yes, you would guess it's the shouting and yelling between partipants and of course the very furious well known chef, Gordon Ramsay.

And I'm not kidding but this competent chef intrigues me. HE IS NOT EVEN GOOD LOOKING. Well, what can I say. It's true personality beats beauty. Still, does that mean I'm into mad angry men who swears every minute in every sentence? HAHAHAHHA. But, really. Yikes.

We all love sleeping, sleeping is good

2011-07-11T23:57:00.002+08:00

AFTER ALL THESE WORKLOAD, I AM BEATING OR AT LEAST HAVING MY PREVIOUS HIGHEST AMOUNT OF SLEEP- 17 HOURS STRAIGHT WITHOUT DISTURBANCE, JUST ME, MY BED AND NO SIGHT OF THE OUTSIDE WEATHER.

//edited
TUESDAY 3.36 PM

That was a waste of space for a post. lol.

Woke up from the couch yesterday and still felt so tired. For a moment, I got so frustrated why after spending so many hours a day working on an assignment, it is never ending and why after all the rest even, I still feel so fatigue. Hence, the sudden update on an ODD hour. lol (SINCE WHEN I USE LOL)

I never thought myself as a pretty woman. But saying otherwise just comes to mean that I'm not satisfied with what God has given me and so honestly at a certain point, I do feel comfortable with myself. Just that, after that very time I cut my long (and most favorable) hair I had in my life, when I stopped going for facials and acne starts popping up like no ones business, when it multiplied even more when my time of the month came, when MY TIME of the month came, when my sis was here and I gained weight, lack of grooming due to hectic workload and tiredness and basically just cause no reason of doing so when I seldom had been hanging out and the latest edition of having to wear specs due to astimagtism.

I feel like staying in the whole time. Gotta shape up!

Till we meet again

2011-07-09T23:44:00.000+08:00

As hugs and waves are given with smiles on the outside, but deep inside, is a clenching of the heart with a tight fist and tears to fight back.

Say hello to goodbye, again.

Lazy to complain

2011-07-07T03:38:00.002+08:00

Because every tired word said,
there's always another 'more tired',
every busy word mentioned,
there's always another 'more busy.'

My time's somehow often taken for granted.

On another note, even though certain things are heading downhill but you know what, I'm smiling cause just as Satan would think times like these would pull me down, he's still at the loosing end.

There are currently three submissions in this two days. Yeap, everyone is getting nuts.

Tell me you'll open your eyes

2011-07-02T05:14:00.000+08:00

Hello fellow readers, I'm back from Singapore! Okay, that was about two days ago.

I got to wake up very early later and the reason I'm still awake, yes, no surprise but for assignment sake. I have less than a week to finish up a 3 minutes video entitled "Living Your Dreams" and technically I had skipped this particular multimedia class a lot, hence progression tutorials with lecturer is extremely bad. Plus, my idea proposal was semi accepted semi rejected? I really dread doing this assignment firstly because of videoing but decided to start with it anyway. And guess what, there are so much to do then expected.

Converting files, cutting videos, finding a song, cut and match the song, etc.

Anyhoo, just a sneak peak of what I've been working on for the past few hours. Take note- song is still not properly adjust, visuals & audio are not synchronize, not all video clips inserted, no title and captions, effects are not inserted and well just NOT DONE yet.

My theme - Travelling with Love Ones.

I. JUST. WANT. TO. TRAVEL

2011-06-27T15:29:00.000+08:00

Admire architectural buildings, soaking in new cultures and bring sex to the eyes with bombastic cars. That being said, I'll be leaving to Singapore in several hours and so much things to be done.

What happened in a past couple of months.

I went to many many places.
I explored a lot of scary places with my vivalavida.
I tickled my taste buds with various food.
I gain weight.
I skipped sleeping and went out to do some wackiest stuffs.
I got lost in the new type of assignments.
I skipped a lot of classes.

Other than that, I think whatever had came to pass is well, passed and left behind. I guess some things are temporarily and you just cannot gain back some favorable times even if you may want too. Like the maxim it says- every good things has come to an end.

For now, focus on these two weeks with submission, presentation and exams.

PS : My mistake, it is already 3 months down memory lane. Did God fast forward time or something?
PSS : ~~Coming sem break sounds like a bore.~~

Potato, my eyebags

2011-06-25T04:06:00.001+08:00

It's 3.44am, blogging from my sister's house. And if you think I'm very free, my time is suprisingly consumed with assignments which I just stopped cause my brain's not functioning already. My sister is even complaining because I am not spending enough time with her while she's here for her three weeks break. What more with the peeps, haven't been on the skyping + assignmenting marathon for a while now. Been facing this computer of mine for 22838347 hours and I'm pretty sure my eyesight is ruining by the minute (I can't see shizz far away on roads at night already).

SO, if you happen to be a graphic student or a stressed out one, what's the solution?

READ MEME COMICS.

http://rageguycomic.com/

http://megustacomic.com/

http://foreveralonecomics.tumblr.com/

Trust me, it can crack you up with their ridiculous illustrations. In fact, I think I'm addicted to it at the moment. Seriously. I have also stumbled across this girl's blog (http://shelleymulshine.se/) which is pretty interesting for me. Take a look (:

Heading to bed now cause I'll have to be awake in 3 hours time? Heading to Ipoh to eat then at night would be dinner buffet in Eastin Hotel. Oh yeah, next week Singapore.

I AM VERY FREEEEEEEEEE right.

TTFN.

Since day one

2011-06-22T04:01:00.000+08:00

Hello peeps, I was thinking of a happy and funny post today! At this hour. I was actually rummaging through my photo albums to dig out some pictures for my photography assignment when I stumbled upon many interesting epic moments with everyone in Muffin.

Especially this lady.

Scroooll down.

This is was our very first vampire night out, in Station One. Where our man was there too and the two living souls weren't together yet. I remembered we spent the whole time talking about our childhood memories till four am in the morning.

My Typography partner in this MORE project. Both students best liked by our lecturer *bangga*. Haha.

During our sleepovers in the studio. Kena abused #1

When she had to leave to head back to KK for break. It was surprisingly a very long two weeks.

After class lepaking in PINK. Sem one days.

Heading downtown KL in the taxi.We stayed in Timesquare for a night.
Abusive pic #2.

This.is.obviously.another. abused picture.
#3

Quite recent when we were in Genting trying to stall time at the themepark.
And I thought, hey! Why don't we try out the smiling dectection.
From here, we definitely can see who's making the effort.

Hoarding Competition in Puchong.
Our first class competition and I got to say, I am thankful she was there though she's not part of it due to so many complications.
Still, she tayang tayang there. Pfft.

Our supposedly 'photography road trip'.

One of our first time hanging out with the man again.
On the way to The Curve.

And how can I forget, my jalan jalan cari makan friend. Both food monsters in Muffins but she's a bigger one that's for sure. Haha.

Last but not least, another abusive pic #4

This was the girl that came all the way from KK, Sabah now stepped into KK, Shah Alam, dating my friend whom I knew back in high school, that became my closest crony in college. She's invading my territory! And practically from what you seen, yes, people do think she abuse me too much. But it's just something we do that's funny in our own way and I can't believe I tolerate. Too much.

But still I sayang. Okay, corny much.

Alright, ending this with a short ridiculous video. Haha.

Forgive, sounds good

2011-06-20T04:36:00.016+08:00

I learnt something today. Not that it was something so new yet it was this time, I chose to accept and try living it out. The message of being patient and giving people the room to change and letting them to change in a matter of time. It's so true when it was mentioned that it is the ones that you're absolutely close with, that you tend to know their flaws, weaknesses and mistakes. And maybe by thinking that those negativity of one is hard to accept and you then push them away, perhaps that is not the best solution after all. Cause from what I learned, no matter how bad a character can be, give them a chance. God can do wonders. And personally, I do think they're able too, if they know how much it means to their close ones.

Moving on.

Eyebags getting worse.

As you all would know, my social outings had toned down or rather died lately. And as you would also know, my sis touched down a few days back and hence, I've went out once or twice with her to places. And by her taking over the wheel which finally I'm able to sit on the passenger's seat to look out the window without having my eyes on road signs, I realized that many places I come across, there are stories to tell. Most of them are darn hilarious and you asked me what was it about, I can't recall really cause there were just too much of them. But yes, just missing out the days before.

My sis is heading to Singapore. And she plans to go to Bali. And Aussie ticket in August less than a thousand ringgit two and flow. OH MAMA MIA.

Focus on final assessments first shirin!

TTFN.

To recap, to rethink, to rejudge and to resurface unwanted feelings.

2011-06-17T04:27:00.003+08:00

Approximately several weeks ago from present, it wasn't a good one and I have no intention to bring it up in detail. Just that, till today, even I'm thankful with the financial and domestic help, accommodation and the basic needs provided here, I am still lacking of what's more important- time, communication, understanding, love.

Suddenly this time round, all the things that I planned to do when it occurs again, really became very close to happening cause for once, I stood up and wasn't afraid with what the other things I might loose along the way to set things right. And at the moment, I can't even tell what's right actually. Just funny how after many many years, the two supposedly role models we ought to look up or turn too, when things doesn't go right in between, the rest of being affected goes unnoticed. I have been the middle of both parties and I feel like the adult with wisdom nurturing two people which just doesn't want to be at the loosing end. Both trying to grab hold but am I an object of subjecting who won this time? I may just help myself out.

It is true when people say it's easy to say and hard to do. Cause truth be told, I've forgiven, truth be told I'm lying. And I think it's a matter of time with the meditation on God's words that I would eventually come to a point of reconciliation? For now, I'm just glad my sister is back from Tassie.

Skinny love- Birdy

On the other side, I feel as though I'm loosing a friend. I think I lost already anyway, behind cover sheets.

Drive angry

2011-06-13T04:24:00.000+08:00

I unlocked my car the other morning and alcknacnaklnaklncalsk... mud stains on the edge. Later at night, I parked my car at SS15 and lskcnaklnckacnaklscnl, bird shits everywhere. Top, left, right, front, back. *rageguyface*

I don't want to be said to worship my car but IT'S A CAR. It's not something that you can get with a snap of your fingers. Some people say cars are not meant to be so tidy and neat and clean cause well, you travel everywhere but do you say the same thing with your house? Isn't it similar? Yes, no doubt that you move around (after all, that's a job of a vehicle) and you'll have minor dirt here and there but sometimes, it feels painful when cars are not treated with care. Especially for a car like mine, you bang the car doors hard it may just crack the whole body.

Just a random thought at this hour I though of jotting it down. Dad's asking me about Super GT Race but I'm skipping it. Sister's coming back this evening. annnnnnnd I'm bored.

Let's race,

to bed.

Seriously, let's race. Okay, if I have a better car, we shall :3

WHO AM I TALKING TOO?

Spongebob's BFF origin

2011-06-10T04:24:00.003+08:00

I personally think every girl can be really pretty if they want to. If they're determine to put in the effort, which I'm always lack off. For instance, if you were to look at my current state of appearance at this hour, you'll disgust yourself. Yet, this is the time my beloved friend chose to skype with me, with her another guy friend which is also my former high school mate. You get me?

I had a class photography trip to Crabby's Island yesterday morning and a packaging tutorial in the afternoon by the way. Came back at 8.00pm and knocked out straight. I haven't even shower (I'm shock myself) & I got to wake up at this hour to get my multimedia video done cause submission is due later in the afternoon. Where by I'm amazed too cause I didn't thought I would be able to handle that bombastic software when the assignment brief was handed out.

Yeah, from basic two Adobes'. Now our sem is conquering another four more (starting to feel like a designer). Nah. I miss manual work. No, not as in doing a packaging but still designing it in the COMPUTER, instead a real manual back to basic drawing and painting kinda work. Though I'm not competent enough.

Botanical Park in Putrajaya. That place is really so deserted.

Been blogwalking a lot lately and why am I'm not surprise that bloggers are promoting a lot about the upcoming MTV World Stage in I-City.

Random

2011-06-08T04:31:00.001+08:00

People think I, or rather we designers don't sleep and we have super powers that enables us to stay awake. Hate to burst the bubble, truth is we still have our sleep though not sufficient in the evening and hence at this hour we're still wide awake. Personally, I find inspiration kicks in at this hour so that explains my routine. However, the downside would be less contact with the family, which is equally unhealthy.

It's WEDNESDAY already. Just today, just now, suddenly, it hit me that time is going by too quickly. It was just as though yesterday I went to church on a Sunday morning and before you know it, now it's already the mid of the week.

So many things to do and so little time really.

Kinda retarded nail designed while watching Piranha.

How's life heh. Well, full of collywobbles. A moment you think you have it all, the next thing everything feels like a wall is building up. A minute you think you gain a friend, another you know you kind of lost part of it. You feel great with your accomplishments and you feel discourage with the many things you haven't done yet. The usuals. But I'm still coping and trusting. Amazing how even though we fall asleep, our minds are still working 24/7 don't you think.

Okay, gonna continue whatever assignments so I won't wake up regretting. And what shall I do for the rest of the day? Hmmmm.

(:

Blog and literal walking perhaps

2011-06-05T02:25:00.002+08:00

Even though there are so many assignments on hand, I am not sure why I'm lazing around the past couple of days, entertaining myself with social networks and rageguycomic. Talking about social networks, I stumbled across this apparently famous photographer and blogger name Jason Goh (same surname, oh yeah). He's a Sony dslr user (thumbs up) which pushes me to be better and his blog indeed interest me so much until I actually scrolled back 20 over pages. The more I read, I got to know that we have mutual friends as well, small world.

Here's the link if you want- www.smashpop.net

So basically, you can't ask me anymore what are my hobbies lately cause all I know I'm relating myself a lot to cars (I want new body kit/ paint-RM25 for a size of single colour Buncho bottle), phones (I want HTC) and well, photography. But more of the travelling. In search of new places to explore. And here are a few I have in mind.

Eye of Malaysia, Melacca.
KLPac, Sentul KL.
Sekinchan.
Taman Tasik Perdana, KL.
Another hill near Broga Hills.
Connought Power Station, Port Klang.
Bandar Puteri Section 12.
Fireflies park, Kuala Selangor.
Gold Coast, Sepang.
Sepang Circuit.
Raffles building.
LKW, Cyberjaya.
Old Railway Station.
Abandoned traintrack, Subang Airport.

Okay, the list seems kind of long and I have a few more actually.

Oh yeah, something exciting to look forward by next week. I'm finger crossing to get my second tatt done or at least the consultation. This time, better walk the talk cause if not, I'll take it slow and eventually scrape the idea off.Hmm.

omg, those eyebags

We came this far. Everyone's growing up.

Sparkling white, hmmm. Not really.

2011-06-02T19:40:00.001+08:00

Earth to readers.

Been very busy lately. How many assignments you ask? 12 to be exact. Duration of four weeks left, then we're done. Time flies, yeah. So it's another one of those evening that I've decided to wash my white machine.

CAR TALK NAO.

As you know it, it's white. Because of it's color, dirtiness visibility is indeed very obvious and you know how depressing to drive when it's in that condition? Just in case you didn't know, this is my VIVA.

~~You can call it Viva La Vida or Bieber Viever.~~

It's been my passionate companion for almost a year now. Still running strong but can't guarantee as it's giving up on me a little by little. Recently, it's giving out sorta clutching sound in the engine beneath when I'm in a low gear and my breaks are not working well. Or is it the tyres (if it is, yes! Can change to bigger ones *widesmiles*) Either way, I am assumed to have a bad judgement as I often stop at the last minute. Break problem. ):

Did a check run through after getting it washed just now and ohh myyyyy. The damages that I've gone through with it.

This is my very very careless mistake of doing a u-turn and hit the curb.

The latest addition.
Illegal turning in Port Klang.

The early days when I often fly over bumps.

Thiiiiisssss, the grass cutter man scratched >:(

My first major accident. My fault.
Hit by a newspaper motorcyclist. So yes, I give way to them now -.-
On the other note, lucky no scratches just dents.

The cracked underneath at the back bumper. I lost my rims and got new ones.

Last but not least, the ultimate saddening one. Cause it's the MOST VISIBLE. The scratch that I came across when I was going off for class. I have no idea who did this, assuming it's one of the neighbors.

Apart from above, there are multiple scratches and rusty spots popping up from nowhere. I want to get it repainted. Sighhhhh. I would not be so disturb if a vehicle wasn't something so costly nowadays. In addition to that, petrol's going up constantly. And I've been spending much much more the past weeks already. Hence, that explains the slow driving already. Seriously, not bragging about how I love driving fast (not that it can too actually) but just gotta save up these days.

Bottom line, it's the expenses. PETROL, TOLL, TICKETS equals to forking out more money.

I believe only drivers can understand and feel these car craps. Okay, maybe not. But seriously. *pokerface*

ps : Why am I getting so work up. Shucks.

Quick check in

2011-05-29T00:42:00.001+08:00

Oh yeah, officially my headache of two years back striked back. This time round is way way waaay worse. I can't take it but to count on more panadols. Huge sigh. Doctors, find a solution please besides advising on sleeping early, drink less caffein, don't work so much, etc.

All thriller movies I've downloaded are corrupted. Hard to get work done now in this state, but I'll try. ~~Things we do in order to succeed.~~

Is it cause of college stress people at this age are getting sick and weak (literally) or it's just simply because... we're getting old. shucks.

PS : SUPER GT RACE coming soon. Adui.

To many 'literally', literally

2011-05-26T02:53:00.019+08:00

We meet again, headache. I've taken panadol to seize the prickling pain and strange enough, it got my hands trembling literally and my whole body system feels as though I've just came back from some massive drinking session. I'm starting to see double images. Again literally.

The reason I'm blogging cause I'm mentally exhausted. These several tabs and microsoft word pages about Ansel Adam and Mark Zuckenberg for photography and computer graphic assignments respectively that has been appearing on my screen since morning is causing me to zone out. I can't take it. Who knew 1500 words can become such a heavy task for a student that aced her english throughout her high school.

This week is a change. Or should I say it's still hanging. I think, that is why it's been so difficult. I have no idea what actions to take or what words to speak. I appear offline not for attention seeking but for this time, I really didn't have the tendency to at least pretend I was in the mood to talk. Not that I did a lot over here too. I've been bunking my older brother's room already btw. Currently, I'm just looking forward to head to uni and elsewhere. Like I said, not for the sake of taking pictures but to just head somewhere, free from what's truly happening. Unfortunately, a place alone cause at least there, then I can escape just for a little while. Putrajaya has been popping up so many times. Have you been there, it's totally isolated. Furthurmore, there brings back memories of what my friends and I have. Who can stay serious when it's relating to that crazy lovely bunch heh.

Droved to a friend's place of mine at 2am yesterday which adds on the list of my crazy things I've done. I stepped into the house, outside to the balcony and it was literally one of the most magnificent breathtaking view I've seen of the city. I felt content, satisfied. Push aside that, all of these made me think boy, I'm growing up. How would I able to do that back then. Now, it's about making your OWN decisions. Facing your OWN consequences.

#lesson to self : boys actually likes handmade cards. noted.

Call me selfish in a way that people care and I don't bother opening up or the fact I'm isolating myself with solitary plans, but for now, I have no courage or any plans to answer what's going on, neither what to do. Maybe when the time is right. Just knowing, things would eventually have a full stop despite what the outcome is. Meanwhile, Paul the movie (surprisingly entertaining) and forever alone made my day. Cheers.

There's gotta be more to life

2011-05-21T05:40:00.001+08:00

I'm angry with myself, why am I still awake at this hour. I can already hear the birds chirping outside and it's kinda irritating. Sorry. Worst of all, I'm blogging another post after an hour later. Inspiration kicks in when I read other blogs. And this shall be more of life. I'll try.

I always thought I was quite talented and competent in some ways. Unlike just focusing on one target, I actually have many interest, hobbies and past times. I even thought at this age in life, nineteen, I was already accomplishing and doing things many teenagers would not be able. But then, started a year ago, everything died. Realizing how tough money was hard to earn what more to maintain, my car, labtop, dslr, phone bill, petrol tank, toll, damaged gadgets, software, design materials (SO MANY) all went back to my dad's worries. Call this irrelevant but I always thought growing up should also meant when you're able to stabilize your own financial. Now, here, I haven't even have my first job experienced.

Day after day, I feel more and more rebellious, which I thought it runs among the five siblings I have. It used to be just my brother and I put myself as the second in rank with the piercings and tatt. But then, my sister became a semi wild child over abroad, now leaving my younger brother not much difference to another chaos. Yes, unfortunately, we take our parents for granted.

Hence, I don't wanna disappoint them in my studies. Furthermore, daddy always said higher education qualification is compulsory in this world today. Despite the financial burden, furthering degree is part of my future and I can't be so selfish to waste my diploma down the drain. College always meant busy. First and second sem that is. Cause the more I look back, the past two ones are not that tough. I actually still had free time to hang out, surf the net and as you can see, updating all my social networks so frequently. And somehow, my other 'important' interest just faded away. That sums up to a very predictable daily life.

My artworks are also dying in some way. I can't think of any ideas currently and my weekends are here.

Gotta buck up!

Brother joe in the house

2011-05-21T04:11:00.012+08:00

Lately, I'm trying to reevaluate everything, about myself. Basically nothing very deep on the inside (maybe a lil), but more on the surface. Which is also not on appearance (kay, a lil too) but yeah.

Things revolving around my conversations are such as cars, speed driving, huge burgers, robots, fries, latest gadgets, cars. I often wear casual jeans with a plain top, matched with my boring black flip flops or purple converse. Having weird kangkang and walrus-ish random candid pictures. Several guy friends opening up their deepest disturbed feelings to me. To, not for. I can't believe I even stayed up before to catch those late nights football matches.

And I'm telling myself, indeed I ain't your typical feminine woman. I try to act like one at times but deep down, having fist fights, making the most ridiculous sounds, laying on the ground like a dead fish and watever not is indeed something I enjoy doing. Especially when I often said I hunger for those adventures that make life seems worth taking a risk. And I just don't see how it's possible to hide that side of who you really are when you're with a total stranger or precisely a dude. Okay, maybe I should control some weird attitudes but you get me.

& I question, would there be really a guy out there that would accept me for who I am or would they just come and go, treating me as their other brother joe. It rhythms!

Hahahhahaa. Boy, what a funneh mind I have. Okay, weirding out, weird out. xoxo

The bruised that had been there since a few years back.
It's becoming worse.

Assignment first, then play.

2011-05-19T13:15:00.002+08:00

Danger zone. Still can't think of any designs for my tea packaging, literally. Shall really brainstorm after this.

So for the two wackiest thing I did this week was staying up to watch sunrise on the bridge overlooking summit and secondly, invading the bustling city of klang all the way to north by the river. Remember how I used to like spending time by myself at home just cause? now it's transfered to the outdoors. With a dslr, smart tag, a vehicle, gps- basically everything that enables a person to move around easily, you bet I really enjoy it more now. Gonna be so screwed that I travel alone without notice.

That being said, that's why I have the urge to go back to Putrajaya; quiet and quiet. But I guess that's the joy. Not worrying of this and that, just driving to places you intend to go, not care what time to go and leave, or what's your next plan in the agenda. Just drive. However though, I must say that travelling by yourself is indeed dangerous, especially when you're a women, especially when you're carrying so many gadgets along. (semi angry look on the world's corruption).

sunrise

old klg bridge

Klg mosque

alam impian

Call this creepy but I came across Kyle's hideaway spot. Don't worry, I wasn't stalking. It was isolated. That shows how deep and lost I went ==

To be frank, I'm kinda bored of photography. My likes on fb has decreased, my own likes for them has also went down, it's just the places I went I want to share. I guess I just want to travel around, that's all.

Moreover, assignments relating to it makes it more irksome. Sigh. Okay, you know what. I don't mind driving to KL already.

PETRRROOOOL'S GOING DOWN LIKE SHEEP.

I'll tell you how it goes

2011-05-17T05:13:00.001+08:00

It's 4.44am. Die.
A little dissapointed that I can't open the Letters To Juliet movie file that I've just downloaded. My progression on all my assignments are pretty far ahead compared to what I've been slacking and I'm trying to stall time here. Call me silly but since I have no classes, plans are kind of dead recently, I told myself I got to do something that's going to be a highlight of my this one week break. That being said, I am heading out to to capture sunrise again. Well, more of the chasing cars from the walking bridge overlooking Summit. Hence, another two hours to go I suppose.

Putrajaya. Credits to nabeh.

It’s sad when people you know become people you knew.When you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life.How you used to be able to talk for hours. And now, you can't barely even look at them.

#notetoselftoo

Everyone experiences it. It happened to me with my alimentary peeps, high school and history is going to repeat itself again. Everything is falling into bits here and there and as usual, we try to be ignorant. We have conflicts and we push them away without even realizing it. So yes, it's that easy for people you know become people you knew. In the midst of all the pretending, basically everyone keeps an angered heart and a fake smile on the outward. This, in a way, saddens me. I am not trying to be a saint of saying the usual thing I quote 'forgive, forget, move on.' But just as we decide not to do as such, aren't we're just like the rest, keeping count of revenge, something eating human up alive at this generation. Why do we then want to conform to the pattern of the world? In the Bible, God touches so much on love. Love for the needy, for the poor, the alienated but the very simplest- love your brothers.

So maybe you defend yourself by saying both parties has to come to an agreement to solve something. Indeed but what outcome would it be if both are stubborn, waiting for one another in silence. Do your part the right way and well, just leave it to the Almighty man. Cause He can do wonders.

A few days back, 14 May, rewind back to 1969, was a day that a huge fight against all religions took place in our country after the elections. Not just any verbal abuse but rather physical violence such as killing. Isn't it dissapointing that is just how the world seems to work? Not compromising to back down but to prove the state of mind so harshly. If only, one individual for a sec, thought about what Jesus would do (WWJD) it would be much better I reckon.

Kay, it's only 5:13 am. What to do now?

Mechanical machines

2011-05-16T05:45:00.001+08:00

Thank god for latest technologies. Indeed, I love gadgets. My predilection for them fade away a few years back actually (prove of my same old mobile) but hey, it surfaced again. Just gonna briefly run through some stuffs that I really really want now.

First and foremost, a new mobile phone.

HTC Touch Pro.

After my obsession with a vertical slide phone, now I want a horizontal one with a qwerty keyboard. I particularly like this model and hey, android ftw heh?

Ipad 2.

Oh my. Never was a big fan of the first one but the second I am. Saw my cousins' one and I think it's pretty cool, I actually don't mind owning one. However, if only they had Adobe app, that would be a plus.

Third,

An Ipod Nano.

But not really on the top of the list. Just thought it would be nice to get one and plug it in my car during long hours of driving.

Last but not least, camera related stuff.

This is a Tilt Shift picture which basically explains its effect- miniature snapshots. Which obviously requires a separate lens.

Lomography.

More for fun usage which to many people, it is a kind of a waste since for a price of 200+ a lomo camera, it captures such weird silly ones. I think it's interesting actually. There are b&w, fish eye, panoramas, etc. For more info, visit http://www.lomography.com/magazine/reviews .

All in all, no extra cash to spare for these stuffs at the moment, not any time soon in fact. Uni, why you draining out my moneeeeeh.

Cars, such wide topic

2011-05-12T02:44:00.001+08:00

Friends gonna think I'm ranting but at the of the day, every journey taken it's cool with me.

From the very beginning of schooling till now, I was not a driving lover. Unlike majority of my friends who often drove illegally cause they were eager to reach that age of getting a license, I on the other hand had to be force to go for this compulsory thing we call, driving course.

Despite manual or auto, with or without a power steering, lousy or a comfortable car, I just don't fancy driving. For one reason, it's tiring with the parking, paying tickets, making sure everything's off and lock, that everything is secure and safe, no damage (esp when you truly love your car) and well, the fact that you're driving. Have you ever wonder how many people actually waste their time on their journeys? While everyone's chilling or whatever, I'm wasting almost 1 1/2 hours everyday driving home. I always ask myself how I survive, especially alone cause ask my siblings, when I was young, I out of all of them, snoozes off the whole journey while my parents drove.

Lately, I myself find I can't drive properly on the road. Not boasting rather feeling a tad shameful cause I'm putting people's life on risk. I've been driving around a lot the past week for very reasonable reasons and it comes to this point, I'm so tired I just wanna get there- done.

Above it all, I came to love cars. I actually google, check out and have car talks with others; strange. I remember asking myself or perhaps my elder brother why would one be so fascinated by them. Till today, I don't really know why either but hey, see what I'm talking about. My mum often said my brother worships his car, I think I'm in his team too, which is equally very very bad. Very.

Petrol price is increasing day by day. Which reminds me, mine's almost on 'E'. (sulks). And tomorrow, another destination to go, a class assignment trip. Gah, the minute the uni knows you have a vehicle, you are trapped. I'm so tired being the driver. Can romeo come into my life soon so for once, I can look to my right and say 'Hey, check that view.'

This time, Dad quotes 'Get a well paid man and get your Celica.' (speechless).

Another love story

2011-05-10T02:14:00.000+08:00

I watched 500 Days of Summer this afternoon and again, if I'm actually blogging about a movie, especially a romantic one, it is indeed a thumbs up for me. Just like Dear John, The Notebook, Remember Me, Ps : I Love You and so forth, this is another twisting saddening story which you'll reach the last thirty minutes of the movie and go, how can they end it like such. Personally, these endings are the ones I'm often intrigue just cause, it's realistic sometimes.

500 Days of Summer ends with a man that ended up falling for this girl who doesn't fully believe in love. Their semi coupled relationship was quirky, weird and fun but at the end, she ends up marrying another man whom by that time truly felt like the right one. Just like I find, sometimes one person may think that one particular person would be the one but the other might just not think the same.

When the time is right, I believe two will somehow be join together- fate.

And you know what, even though I really despise those cliche mushy relationships, I'm a sucker for these type of movies. They're not ordinary I assume? It shows like how things you usually enjoy doing by yoursel, now, enable to share with another, someone you dearly love. It's exciting.

joseph gordon levitt is very adorable btw!

Sometimes, do we even hear what we're saying, what we're doing.

2011-05-05T03:31:00.002+08:00

THINNNNNK.

Hello, I think I just enter an abandoned empty smelly page.

Just for updates, I'm beginning to see my progressions in assignments and decreasing time in outings. It's a good thing but that too, I didn't say I'm not lost in the pile of long duration works here and there.

Photography. My on and off hobby since I owned a dslr. Heck yes, been to almost all the hot spots just for photography purposes and this actually just puts a smile on my face, how I accomplished so far. Moreover, I always loved travelling. I need moneeeeh. And I do realized how I really like landscape shots. Totally dislike when a blurred moving object gets in the way.

Did some solo photo shooting this particular week, obviously travelling with my white machine. Oh boy, how I miss those quiet days. Something about driving alone with no one to interrupt your thoughts, disturb your channels, messing around your valuables, oh the joy.

Okay, don't get me started on cars cause lately I'm really into them. Call this dangerous, I would take a look behind or rather chase after when I see a nice one.

Nowadays, people take their life for granted on roads. True story.

Written in the stars, a million miles away

2011-05-01T03:35:00.004+08:00

Saturday night

*backspace, scratch what's type

Ephesians 4 : 26

In your anger do no sin. Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold.

At the end, after everything, am I even taken seriously, all parties.

TTFN.

ps ; Didn't even touch on assignments tonight.

140 in 13 minutes

2011-04-27T00:12:00.002+08:00

Cherish the moment, things may not be the same someday

; uknown

How true.
Became the bullseye for the first time.
I'm not even helping myself. God, help me.

I think I wanna marry you

2011-04-26T02:53:00.001+08:00

True love does not exist, just find a rich man- quotes mum.

Wow, why am I not surprise anyway? BUT, a big but, even a so called 'hard-hearted' living soul I can be, nope, I don't agree. Maybe I don't believe at love at first sight, that's just means outer appearance focused and bah. However, I do believe falling in love with that someone when you truly met the right one.

I've been surrounded by many people of the opposite sex lately until I took a nap and had a dream. A awkward one where you head out on a road trip, just with all the boys. Oh my. But to be very frank, day after day, it surprises me in many ways of how a man can actually feel and act as such. I knew so little and I'm grasping in more, I'm intrigue.

After everything, no matter what age we may be,

No matter how intimidating our outer appearance may seems,

Deep inside, we still act as children once in a while.

Which, I think it's adorable.

Part of them.
Very funny but I wonder how strangers can become such close friends, like a family. As a matter of fact, they resemble my scattered real siblings, I miss them. And I always have this worry, which goes to the rest of the peeps. Like how I was so close with my previous chumps, now as much as we try to deny, it's slowly and surely drifting apart. I ask, the effort we put in when we meet the ones we feel connected, what we do about the rest? Do we have the right to neglect them when they're also so dear to us, at least in the past. But that, them, I'm still trying my best to cope. At the mean time, with the present people, will it be the same in the near future?

Just saying.

I will live for you

2011-04-23T02:54:00.003+08:00

Again, after everything we do, what are we really chasing after? Is it after the acceptance of the ones you want to impress, after the attention of the ones you feel you can't connect? After the world? Dress up, make ups, stick thin figures, decent talks, what are these for?

Above all, it's Good Friday a couple of hours ago. It's the death of Jesus who died on the cross for our sins, you and me, children or strangers. His last words was 'It is finished.' Indeed, everything you secretly want is already given, it is already finished. Don't worry because it is already in front of us, just claim it.

// I'm home but I miss my family. It's time you should know where I went wrong. Just a lil.

Happy Good Friday peeps. Easter is tomorrow.

Love, Safe the Empty

2011-04-20T01:18:00.003+08:00

It's proven. You can never really stay fresh 48 hours with only 2 hours of sleep. Just can't be done.

1.11am

I like seeing time when it's all numerical balance.

This is a Toyoto Celica. Hot pink.
Strangely enough, I've been looking into cars nowadays. Talking to my dad & brother about it too. I guess, that's just when you often drive around, stuck in jam, and bumps into bombastic amusing cars.

Many people often turn to God in times of need, even myself. And there is no wrong to that cause it does say that, seek God in times of troubles cause at the end of the day, your answer is so clearly there- in the word of the Bible. Yet lately, everything has been going on so smooth and fine, I can't help myself but to praise Him in everything He's blessing me with. Everything is so overwhelming and God always sticks to His promise. He said the present sufferings that you're enduring cannot be compared to the great outcome that would be revealed in future. How true.
Just along the way, I fervently pray that I do not loose control of who I really am, of who I walked the journey with and how I made it this far.

Thank Him in everything, ups & downs.

So guilty but for now, I feel the best way is to sleep off the stress.

Good Friday & Easter Sunday this week peeps ! (:

WEEK 6

2011-04-18T18:48:00.002+08:00

that's more than a month.
STILL ROAMING AROUND. TRUE STORY.

I slept with my white spaghetti strap and black skirt ytd -.-

The first two weeks of break was exceptional for sure but the four weeks after that, now hitting the sixth week, I haven't touch a single assignment. Not entirely true cause I kinda did the 20% of my photography juxtaposed album you can say but there are few others due by this week too. I really got to admit I'm a bit tad lazy this sem and outing-craving, hence that explains another sleepover yesterday. But in my defense too, some assignments are not yet finalized and some are pretty achievable at the last minute? Not good too.

Morgan De Toi fashion show night

Did I tell you I thought I lost my license? False alarm.

Yesterday went for seafood then down to KL with the two boys just to take pictures of the Twin Towers. So close, it somehow amazes me how huge that building can be. Night's pretty short as we just decided to head back to the house where I was supposed to drive back around one am plus TILL a friend tagged a picture of me that's supposed to be a white figure? Which we laugh it out, teasing that it looks like Casper. Well, long story short, that lead us to see some photo image and videos of Abang's love so called ghost hunting and it actually creeped me out. Yikes. Thus, didn't drive back home after that. Watched The Crazies (disappointment) and slept at 6am.

I always love scary movies. I like the killing, blood and everything. It gives such exciting adraneline. And it's those movies thats scary but at the end it turns out it's not really, that's the good ones

-Kimberly Wyatt

After everything, what are we really chasing for actually?

Also, did I tell you I have a new name? Celine, Celine Dion.

Bah.

Knowing things are not alright

2011-04-12T02:53:00.002+08:00

Why am I blogging at this hour when everyone is asleep, the social network is quiet and especially when I'm currently sick and weak?

You know, lately it has been a tad different. As far as home is concern it's going good, now it's other wise. Friends. No judging here really but that's what been revolving around me the past month you may say. A new friend that comes in and ruins a old friendship has surfaced, a long missing friend that suddenly pops into our lives so often nowadays and friends that was just erherh now as though already jumped in the boat sailing together.

All with different backgrounds with different stories to tell ends up here. Well, around my personal circle of friends as far as I'm concern. And honestly, it gives me so much joy to see what was broken before now managed to be mended and well, what more I feel when vice versa.

Can't really say much cause after all who am I to direct when I'm just a person nearby, opinions that are worth thinking or rejecting. But to this day, I guess it's just about coming clean, in a proper way. At the end of the day, when you have done your part according to God's will, he will take care of the rest.

Each and everyone became so individual to me. Somehow, I think it's a must for us all to stick together till the end. The old ones, same goes to the new ones.

Gadis Broga

2011-04-10T03:21:00.001+08:00

Hey guys.

What's productive about the past twenty four hours? Well, hiked up the now so called to be famous Broga Hills located in Kajang. It's approximately a 1/2 hour drive from subang and once you reached, it's about a 1 1/2 hour hike up to the peak. Well, for the five of us it was rather a last minute plan cause we have been delaying it and coincidentally we had no plans for the night. Hence, that explains the flip flops, handbags, hair untied as though we're going for a shopping spree. We went up around three something in the morning to catch the sun rise so it was indeed pitch black. Torchlight is a must! Per person.

final sunrise captured

Well, we came back down not too long after around 7.45am and headed back to Sunway for a not really appetite feeling mamak. Headed back to the nearest crib and took our power nap CAUSE we had to go for class at 2pm. Real zombie for that day.

Movies watched the past month :

Silent Hill
127 hours.
House Bunny.
Just Go With It.
Scary movie 3.
Scary movie 4.
World Invasion : Battle Los Angeles.
Haunted Changyi
Devil.
City Island.
Lakeside Terrace.
Gulliver's Travel.

Women drivers

2011-04-07T02:39:00.001+08:00

And I don't feel like one. Lately, I find myself driving yet fast and scary in a way. Cutting at the edge and worst habit of mine that I can't seem to mend, the inconsiderate action of not putting on signals. For some people, I'm not trying to brag that driving as such is cool nor am I giving a bad impression for others as well. It's just that I guess I am so lazy too drive recently, I just wana get from point A to point B, that's it. That too, I didn't say I was a reckless driver. I am not (:

But majority of women drivers are, I admit. It's just something about them and machine that can't get along. Okay, I'm talking as though I'm a man. That being said, man drivers may be more competent but that doesn't mean racing on roads are cool. That also I'm fine, seriously. It's the ones that goes from the right lane to the left and back so forth. Just the other day, I encountered with one and as the usual, he drove to my side and gave me the look. Long story short, I reached the Summit flyover first. Okay, I feel bad now.

But how can I say so much when I'm an owner not too a bombastic Lamborghini ride rather just a simple Viva La Vida. Manual to add. But I don't really mind actually cause firstly, it picks up speed faster and already a slow person I am, I have a feeling auto might just make me zone out during my driving. All in all, still loving my white machine especially when it's now just washed, vacuumed inside, serviced, roadtax renewed and no further damaged.

Feel like getting my brother's eye lights but that would be just a waste of money. Yikes. And anyone of you interested, it's RM300 per session in Sepang Circuit (don't even know why I bothered google).

Out and drive safe (:

ps : I thank God for multiple car parks around Sunway Uni when lately I've been listening to a lot grumbles regarding Taylor's Lakeside car parks.

& now's too late, & we can't go back.

2011-04-06T03:57:00.000+08:00

Still awake while the boys are finally deciding to sleep which I think it's about time with the non understandable language. They snore. Currently, entertaining myself with How I Met Your Mother since I'm still not tired and bored too. Tomorrow's a no class day. Heading up to Genting in a short while, again, this time hopefully able to capture sunrise. And yeah, we postponed our drive to Ampang look out point again. For some reason I've been longing to go and I haven't got the chance. Perhaps, it might not be how fantastic people would say.

Sore throat already. Till then, ttfn.

A man that plays a big role in my life, in some way.

2011-04-04T23:50:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, I went to Klang riverside for seafood with the family. Finally, a reuniting dinner with everyone, excluding my sister that's in Australia of course. That too, everyone on the table consist of doubles and as usual, I'm the one there alone and often the victim of sitting next to the teapot.

Okay, feel like blogging about my family today. Precisely, my elder brother. Very funny that among all my five siblings in the family, yet the one I can relate too the most is him. My sister and I are definitely closer but there's often many differences we have. You see, my brother and I are seven years apart but somehow throughout my uniform schooling days, it's my brother that's there maybe because my sister was much closer to my cousin sister back then.I remember the days when I will seat in the bus waiting for those secondary students that's in the same school with my brother, where one day, fifteen minutes before the school bell rang, I saw him sneakily jumping out over the wall. I caught him and he smiled. I couldn't help it but laughed back to his mischievous act.

Not forgetting, his friends will always crash our home after school and that made them my friends as well. So close in fact one or two would tag along on family trips. His japanese mix chinese superbly fair friend particularly was the one I'm closest with and how we connected, I have no idea. Yet, with one indirect tragedy, he drifted apart from my brother quietly. I haven't talked nor seen him since.

Sooo, my brother and I have a lot of common grounds. Actually, I think it's his habits that influences me. Because of him, I interest gaming (psp,ps3,wii all he brought home :D), latest technology gadgets, movies and many more.Also, cause of the similar multimedia career path we are in, he brings back lots of goodies and I know much about the field. I can tell you it's no easy but let's have faith shall we. And well, strange but we even share shoes, clothes (obviously me taking over his wardrobe not him) and accesories (earrings and hairbands, astagah). Even my current phone that I'm using belongs to him. This is the fifth phone that has been passed down by him cause for some reason, we just like exchanging phones -.-

My brother is now living in pj cause of journey convenience and nah, I won't say I'm missing that but the room beside mine is rather dead and it's slowly creeping me out. As far as I know, the last time we really hanged out was him driving me up and down during the first week of college when I had no car. We'll talk about cars, sometimes dirty jokes and he never fails to ask me check out his chicks. Okaaaay.

What I wanna conclude is, he wasn't your typical excellent discipline student to be frank. He flunged almost all his exams and even get called to the principle's office for reasons I have no interest in jotting down. So much drama in school what more at home. But to cut long story short, I'm actually very proud of him for who is he today. Yet failed so much in the past, he is now slowly building up. Accomplishing in many things. Hence, I do believe that when one doesn't meet their parents expectation when young, that doesn't mean they'll grow up as a douchebag. People change (:

NOW, I think my brother might settle down for one decent chick after 132897149791 women. Hoorah.

Wow, this is long descriptive post. Oh well.

I say come home

2011-04-02T21:45:00.000+08:00

Stuffy and hot, haven't hit the showers, got bored of the teevee and I'm not sure why I'm blogging at this hour when I'm about to head down to the crazy house for another night soon. Everyday had been a bliss and like mentioned before, something is wrong somewhere. Surprisingly, this time I would say my heart and mind is not parallel at all. It's scary because this is where the chaos usually starts with living souls. Just as you step into something you know it's not right and vice versa? just cause of your greedy intentions at times, it always end up with an outcome that's not favourable. I'm coping onto God's hand. I shall end this with a smiley emoticon (:

Kay, nasi goreng kampung and nescafe ice awaits me at the mens' crib. I'm so intimidaaated (inside joke).

Kickin' in the back seat

2011-04-02T01:01:00.002+08:00

Life of a college student changes your whole lifestyle do you agree to that? I personally think it does. Particularly, mine took a year. Not that the opportunities wasn't there before but well, it's now I'm starting to feel fidgety. Alright, so lately I am no longer sitting still at home rather roaming around like crazy zombies. That being said, I find myself often going out from night till the wee hours of the morning and then for classes. Also, been crashing over at peep's place minimum once a week at least.

All in all, most outings are for photography purpose. So far, I've been tagging along with both dudes (thinking I might be becoming one) to Putrajaya, Bukit Tinggi Pahang, Bukit Jelutong, Shah Alam parks and a few nearby locations. A couple of days back we've went up to Genting Highlands in hope for capturing sunrise but too bad it was raining cats and dogs the whole night, hence too foggy. That too, seriously I have no idea how we managed to stayed up there the whole entire night till morning without getting sleep you can say. And well, what about today? Got back from Ikea and Bukit Bintang, the Dataran area. This time with the additional of my man and lady.

Other than that, I had went for Sunway's DAD hoarding competition and nearly got top five, nearly. Watched several current movies which I was lack behind, and started heading for classes.

Lately, I actually ask myself, what do I really want. The thing is, I really really feel so blessed for the great adventure I'm riding on. Yet, I have no idea what I want the outcome to pop up from all of these at this typical teenage phase. It's as though I'm delirious but something is somehow missing. And frightened myself, I am suddenly not enthusiastic for my studies. Honestly, gotta prioritize back my schedule.

Putrajaya's mosque

Putrajaya bridge

Shah Alam lake
Tryin' out portrait photography

Chin Swee Temple

dua living souls

French Village

Japanese Village area

Rainiiiing & windy

overlooking Twin Towers and Petronas Tower

Indoor theme park

7am, no sunrise in Genting.

Call me a cheeseball but something jumps for joys in me when I see everyone getting along, especially my men.

I wanna marry you on a roller coaster ride

2011-03-26T22:41:00.010+08:00

I am feeling oh so dreadful every minute I'm here in front of this screen of mine. The fact that I was out each and every single day, literally, after my sem three ended which is equivalent to two weeks, yeah fourteen days, I am longing to go out still. I don't know, somewhere. To do plain idiotic stuffs that'll keep my adrenaline pump up.

Sometimes, I really thank my parents for the freedom. The sleepovers, late nights outing, coming back in the wee hours, going out miles away. It's all good.

I still wonder what happened to my previous past times. I used to bake, draw, game, having movie marathons, reading novels, even writing a book for fun. (The obviousness of a loner) Now, here I am. Craving for more time to do silly adventure things like marrying someone on a roller coaster ride.

French village
More pics on facebook.

I came across this in my lady's tumblr.

If he still sees you and falls more in love with you after seeing your weird expressions, your unusual laugh, your constant complains, your ugly days, your pig out days, the way you toss and turn in your sleep, your stupid jokes, the way you ask questions about things you should already know yet he answers them anyway, your obsession with strange things, your random sounds, and your imaturity. The you already know this is the boy.

Shoot me! From eye soaring of couples tshirt to lovey dovey statuses, I am for one the first to instantly get outta there. However, here I stumbled across this passage that for my opinion, a little, just a little cheesy yet I personally think that it's put in a simple and sweet way. I'm actually reblogging and liking these kinda things nowadays. *screams aloud* That is why, I often scare myself by saying that I might just be another Silver from 90210, not too that extreme of course. But you get what I mean. And it's just so funny, so funny that without thinking twice I threw out my thoughts indirectly down grading the men in a relationship in front of my guy friends. Don't get me wrong, I'm not that mean (: I have my unexplainable reasons as well.

But, as I'm in this stage of life, seeing my friends starting to grow and getting themselves involve, especially my guy friends, I am proud of them. From those days that they may seem childish with their pokemon cards whatsoever, now slowly progressing to their maturity level. I truly am impress on how the human of the opposite sex actually takes relationship not lightly rather seriously. Aww, everyone's growing up!

Okay, how did it all ended up in this topic -.-

And nope, I didn't participate in the Earth Hour. That being said, I have a long dead ahead that requires me to wake up super duper early, I'm heading to bed. So technically, I'm saving 5 hours. Do the math.

To eatable loved ones

2011-03-25T01:44:00.001+08:00

Just got back from Bukit Tinggi, Pahang. And 3 venues to head to tomorrow. Pictures soon I'll try.

Alright, BIG DAY, wish me luck! (;

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start

Fall for you;
Secondhand serenade

People and perceptions

2011-03-24T03:34:00.001+08:00

We can like people. But we can't like everyone. That being said, we have to learn to like them too, cause that's the right way. Nobody's born perfect anyway and it is all weaknesses we have to accept. But just sometimes as we don't have any entangle issues with one, but we hear one, bam! it changes everything. We may act the same but somehow deep down, you know you can't look at one the same way how you used to.

Now, why do then people often choose to bring those situations up when it wasn't out in the open in front of your eyes but only ears. Do we have the right to judge? Nope. Even myself, there might be other people that may not look at me with angelic thoughts but hey, everyone's has it's likings and dislikes.

At the end, we got to forgive and forget. Maybe sometimes fix. All in all, as it's said ;

I give you a new commandment: that you should love one another. Just as I have loved you, so you too should love one another.
John 13: 34

What is the bed for?

2011-03-14T02:10:00.000+08:00

Don't worry. Nothing nasty related. Not too sure why I've chosen that as a title as well. Perhaps the thought of a comfortable sleep now puts a smile on my numb face. But don't we all love the bed.

My eyes are getting teary every second which I supposed is due to the overuse of the computer, going through blindly at this hour. Too tired for a movie too.Well, as you would know my blog is slowly dying. Not because I'm busy but the fact I'm a little to lazy. My bad. That being said, yes my sem three is over. Two weeks of break to enjoy and there comes the next sem with five heavy subjects. & I must say, I've realized I've been gallivanting all over since Tuesday and I yet to have a quiet day to myself. We'll see about that heh.

I took off my cbox just cause there are way to many anonymous spamming. So anything, do leave a comment at the end of any particular post. I'll read (:

Nothing informative about this post, but thought of an update. Have a great day readers!

Please say there's a teeny weeny slight chance that it may look similar to Miranda Cosgrove?

Wake up for the time is near

2011-02-28T01:38:00.001+08:00

It's so surprising you know. It's usually something like a bombastic spiritual event that flashes the red light in order for me to stop whatever I'm doing and reevaluate everything all over again. And sadly, in that case which happens a gazillion times, slowly and surely I'm headed back at the wrong track thought to be right.

Here, just a very chaotic week ago, led me to a new discovery. One that is scary yet challenging and definitely awakening. It ain't gonna be easy as ABC but I'm ready to put words into action. Cause through Him, nothing is POSSIMBIBLE (Barney Stinson). Oh yeah.

Let your Sabbath day be a rest day. Tonight, I'm tucking in bed early.

These memories are playing like a film without sound

2011-02-17T01:43:00.001+08:00

In these past two weeks, I'm glad to meet some familiar faces I once complained I see no more. For instance, my primary best buddeh I haven't seen for almost a year, I bumped into her at McDonald. Last week, I managed to have dinner with my close high school friend and her brother and coincidentally bumped into my another best friend the next day. & just yesterday, my friend of ten years called me out of the blue. College well, met back some seniors again and sadly, a couple has left for degree as well.

It's time like these, I reminisce on the good old days even if it was just a few months back, even some bumpy events along the way. The journey that I have now reached, along the way I met so many incredible people. Not many, but enough.

But how many times do we make the effort to meet them up. Will college work be the appropriate reason to give. Or perhaps, will laziness and tiredness be the one in the way. As we put materialistic stuff first instead of relationships, is it worth it? Nope. However, at the meant time, all still connected till this day, I smile and thank the advance of technology nowadays.

As we go on, we remember

All the times we had together

And as our lives change, from whatever

We will still be, friends forever

Very cheesy like a cheeseball,

but this song explains way well.

ps : and I will not lie, at the moment, I miss Tassie and Melbourne a lot.

Just saying

2011-02-10T00:53:00.001+08:00

We are living a life that's bound to have at least one thing, at least a teeny weeny thing that causes us discomfort in our everyday lives.

Anger, frustration, sadness, weariness and the list goes on.

But just as the world is still spinning around, we can make a choice. That's the best part.

To start afresh with a grudging heart

or a smile (:

Life status

2011-02-09T03:12:00.000+08:00

Just as other young adults are thinking of their own wedding preparation and family planning for the future, I am here standing geared up on what my studies would be, what my career would blossom to, moving out to a studio house in my next decade, & most of all- really anticipated to do the purpose of life that's put in me.

& scary, I think I'm becoming a little to addicted to my work now.

Down at a local bar

2011-02-03T03:06:00.000+08:00

'' Where got people do assignment everyday everytime one?"

First of all, so typical asian slang. And secondly- yes sister, unlike you who's here now for your summer break gallivanting, I actually have a life. HAHA. Frankly, I think it's other wise. Assignments are as though need to be done continuously though it's the new year. And honestly speaking, I don't really know why I'm suddenly doing those work that are not as important but sure looks good to be put into my journal to show the tough lecturers since I often can't impress them with my explanation, hence through mock ups etc. Good grades this sem pleeeeaaaasssse.

Other than that, all's good. I'm actually blogging in the dark cause my sis is bugging me.

Enjoy chinese new year! It's the year of bunneh, hunneh.

Let's exchange vows on a roller coaster ride

2011-01-30T00:26:00.002+08:00

Just a short update.

Got back from a friend's wedding of mine and to be frank, though it was long hours of standing and mingling, I enjoyed myself. If you were to know me, I was never one of those who fancy weddings for particular reasons. And being single is definitely not one of it I can tell you. Just cause. Hence, I normally don't go aww. It's funny how I once said signing on paper would be just enough and I meant it but this, it made me think twice (;

Great food, great company.

new year resolution ; improve portrait drawings.

Nights, watching HIMYM all over again. Barney Stinson never fails to make me laugh. Oh, I would marry you if you're straight.

Don't talk nuts and eat your vege kids! Out.

One day you will find me

2011-01-28T02:38:00.000+08:00

Feeling kinda lost and chaos in the study area at the moment. Just cause this sem consist of english and history, don't count packaging class. Which both involves a lot (and I mean a lot) of research and writing. Really, it's out of my zone currently. After all, I haven't been doing any real exam paper work like this since I left high school which is almost more than a year now. Classes are no longer 30 minutes lecture rather from morning to evening, having to stuck in jams. And with the division of junior and seniors that's clearly visible, make classes even awkward. Worst of all, I really really miss our previous lecturers. As far as we know, some are transfering to another department and one changed to part time. Now, here we are with serious lecturers that is strictly a lecture student business. It's always tension esp when it comes to tutorials.

Whatever it is, I find myself not slacking yet.

On the other note, this is occurring in my other parts of my daily life. I am no longer doing things out of passion but rather responsibility, going out because the thought that I should spend some time with human beings rather than a solitary moment at home which I find best cause I'm always tired actually. Blame it on college. Or perhaps, the reason of staying up late to do something unnecessary like this.

This was last sem in a Grafeed club.

It's all about setting time and priorities straight.

Maybe tonight, I'll crawl into my bed. When the night is dead.
It is already.

Put your hands in the air

2011-01-23T00:35:00.002+08:00

Popping bottles of wine on the beach on Christmas day.
Cracking cans of beers on hot afternoons.

I miss the friggin country. And no ones says you got to be drunk to have fun.
Stress is building up. I want to party. Muffins, anytime soon perhaps?

remember that nigh? now laugh

I talk no seeeeeeense (imitates y u no guy)

ONE. ONE. TWO ZERO ONE ONE

2011-01-11T02:14:00.000+08:00

A lesson to learn, a lesson to keep in mind,

'Why do you look at speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?'

Matthew 7 : 3

Those camping in studio days

2011-01-08T01:42:00.000+08:00

Why the sudden of bringing this up you ask? Well, was skyping with Yvonne earlier where we then started watching our old muffin videos back again, where mainly it was in the campus studios. You see, it used to be our second home to get our last minute work done. Classes was big, huge materials could be fitted easily, we didn't need to worry about the mess because there was a cleaner, etc. These isolated studios was well, made for the art and design department and hence, it was also the reason we're able to stay overnight, make the noises we want and not care about the rest which are able to stay in campus till 3.00am, then lights are shut.

Later on, Sunway decided to demolish and move us into a new building.

Now, here we have seldom stayed over. Didn't as a matter of fact. Just because, it's small, enclose and so far away, I bet no one hears you when you scream for help. And our huge overly many models is either not able to be carried up or several trips up and down the stairs had to be made.

Izz's crib is.our.second.home.now. Not to bad, at least there we have the reptiles, swimming pool, psp, mcd delivery, bed, big compound and greater of all, the company of each other.

My life's pretty good eh with the peeps.

Our chaotic mess

Typo days

We thought, 'hey, maybe we should change into our presentation outfit'

It was 3.00 am.

Headed to SS15 mcd for breakfast.

Blankets, pillows, Spongebob, you name it.

Hanged on to it during lecture too.

Few hours before presentation after a whole week camping in studio,

7.00 am.

Seniors joined us.

Yes, we use tables as beds.

Cracking ideas in the wee hours for next day approval.

Study hard, play harder

How can we forget food for survival?

Well, more satisfaction.

Told ya, college was fun!

As we go on, we remember

2011-01-06T00:20:00.003+08:00

I came across Jeremy's blog and he posted something like this and it reminded me of one similar picture that I've capture not too long ago which was also a personal favourite. Those are unfocused Christmas lights btw.

Speaking of Jeremy, shall I put you in my blog post? Maybe I will. Random I know.

People,(basically my regular readers the muffins), meet Jeremy. An ex Spectrum mate, ex high school friend, ex artist partner, ex back up guitarist. Okay, just realized there's too much of and ex, maybe that's just because we've seldom been hanging out anymore and all of the above are in the past. I remember those days when we were back in high school and were both more active with this social programme we once can't live without- msn;windows life messenger. Chat and prattle almost about anything that runs through our mind, sometimes till the wee hours. Not to forget, the main source to go to when it comes to songs. Yes, just like a few others, I have a personal music folder in my computer that's entitles 'Jeremy's songs'. This dude has always been my number one person to work with when it comes to any church stuff involving creativity and boy, I'm smiling to myself as I remembered those days when I dropped by to get the MAD banner done, you were busy beating your own high score in the Tower game on facebook. Talking about creativity, I often have a good laugh reading his blog, the usual lameness. And why Jeremy, you have to go to TOA. Why? HAHA.

But at the end of all these things I;ve written, I just want to conclude that just because of distance, unfortunate timing and other circumstances that drifts us apart from the ones we love, esp when you have many from all over, friendships like this I will not take for granted and will cherish to this very date.

spectrum

bea

sally & rach

ps : Jeremy, now you're free we should do some artsy fartsy stuff, together with Long Bean since he's into 'art' now apparently.

JOB SEARCHING TODAY WAS HMMM.

Waiting on the world to change

2011-01-04T01:50:00.000+08:00

Is it me or the people I know are very different in their own specific ways, not entirely in a negative way though. I see myself often surrounded with people that has bigger, deeper and scarier stories to tell. And people-I mean the ones that I actually do know and not 'yeah, I see her around.' Not trying to brag myself but thanks to God for putting this in me , I think I'm pretty compatible with everyone. It's childish to argue with someone over small matter and loose contact just like that. And with these human beings entering my life day by day, I'm getting exposed to all sorts. And I'm not judging anyone, I do not have the rights anyway at least.

It's just funny that I find myself being caught up with different people from different places all with different personalities. I was even been asked how on earth I knew such people.Surprise myself, I too never thought I'll would especially a girl like me, quiet and innocent. In a way, you get me right? I ain't your typical loud party sociable competent woman. This, puts a smile on my face cause it's somewhat the nearest of prove I get to my prophesies. I'm intrigue to know I have already the jump start to my purpose of God. All in all, I guess you can't spell change without people. However, I do feel as though these groups here and there which are truly dear to me, is where I learn from.

Change. Knowing what I'm gonna repeat myself again, independence was a change I chose to make throughout college. Unfortunately, people don't really see it and whom I shall say to be frank, my family. I'm still thought to be that small girl rather lazy and clumsy that often goes to school, watch tv and hang out. Hence, they often said furthering my studies abroad seems impossible. But hey, I can positively say I will be able to. Yes, there's a lot of responsibilities, I'm not living in lalaland but I guess I will continue to change in accordance to the right timing. Cause back a few years ago, I didn't thought I was capable of doing what I'm doing today.

I'm going on a job hunt. Hopefully. Somehow, just wanted to put that as a new year resolution. Earning that cash to chip in on my studies, and well- to fly myself by at the end of the year, Tasmania again.

CHANGE. Good or bad, thank the King of Majesty.

Muffins, hmm not really similar to cupcakes

2011-01-01T14:28:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps, so I am back from Australia. You betcha, I really enjoyed myself. Despite the weather, food was good, places was good, everything in all was just manifique. Can't really get much into details just cause there are too many but over all, the main purpose of this visit was for my sis's convocation, just graduated her degree in Architecture. And on that very day itself, I see myself staring at her receiving her certificate of joy with her beloved friends, it gave me goosebumps.

I want to experience that one day in future. To know I am able to excel and accomplish something I started. And also to share something that important with my loved ones, at that time I thought of the muffins. You see, very funny cause when you rewind back several months ago to the beginning of the course, we were here and there and somehow we ended up in one whole. We suddenly became known to outsiders via social networks, our coursemates of different sems as well as lecturers that didn't even taught us. Strange but we became somebody in the department. At least that's what I think, in a good and humble way of course.

Friends outside this circle of mine still share our outpourings to one another and having friendship problems herself, I told her I understand. And she asked me how could you when you guys seems so delirious (pictures and stuffs). And it hit me, I guess that's just cause, we are really too close. Cause when it comes to issues, we really do have, many and sometimes majors one as a matter of fact. Two sems gone by and each has a higlighted story of its own, I believe another one is not a surprise. But at the end of the day, we're able to solve, forgive, forget and move one- as muffins.

I know some people don't get us cause they say friendships come and go. I agree but at some point they could be closer than your true blood, for me it did. And we're very unique in ways people really don't get us. Guys in the gang can write lots of mushy lame stuff but people assumed to be gay, I write ridiculous love messages to my guy who's dating my best friend and others think we're in a love triangle, we talk sarcastic but its all for fun, we have our own sesat language that becomes too common in our daily conversations, etc. All in all, too much to say.

Coming back. coming back.
I really want to see myself in that picture. And I won't deny I love the lifestyle overseas and sometimes I thought of settling in for good in future. But then comes the other stuffs to really think about. At the mean time, most of us are still on hold about furthuring our studies. Some may loose their interest halfway and some due to other reasons. But it'll be good if we took another step forward together.

Another year with Muffins, I reckon it's gonna be good! Though we feel ahem like ahem killing ahem each other ahem at times. Loves.

ps : I think we need a girls nights out, leave the boys at home. HAHA.

Burger for Soul

2010-12-16T21:31:00.001+08:00

burgers that are larger than Carl's Juniour.

So here I am, fingers frozen and numb hitting against these keypads at this hour. It's 12.15am fyi. I still ask myself how I go through or rather gonna go through in the room temperature of 8 celcius (what more outside) when usually at home I wear my jacket and not on the aircond at all when I head to sleep- I hate cold weather. And prove of my 'disorder', here I wear 5 layers of sweaters and blankets to sleep and on the heater.

Australia; Tasmania is doing good so far. For the first in a long time, I got the opportunity to head somewhere outside my own familiar territory which I always preferred. Then again, things are not the same. This comes to make me wonder what do I do in future- personally I don't really fancy my own country and now someone else's doesn't intrigue me as well. Okay, just something that popped instantly.

Sam's convocation will be this coming Saturday and heading back to Melbourne next Wednesday. Hopefully, weather would be good. All be good.

ps : eating way too much.

Out of the Shadows is wicked sick!

Faktor-faktor aku

2010-12-13T03:10:00.000+08:00

Hopefully I will have connection for the next couple of weeks. Till then, this is my first forced video.

Gonna miss the muffins and other sayangs <3